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heart So this might sound kinda dumb, but I have been feeling rather "flattered" lately by he people on my GuildWars2-Amino. I did not make the Amino, but I was quickly promoted to Leader and I wanna say that my efforts actually made it a semi-active group again.

Anyways...there are some people that are always in the General Chat (which I made and it ended up being super popular), and when I pop in there they always get excited. They call me their "Amino Mom" and are always wanting to know more about me and my day. I guess it took me back because, when I was just a Curator (kinda like a mod) I was not well-liked because I called a lot of people out on their bullshit and pointed out that the Amino needed a drastic overhaul to be successful (that's when I got promoted to Leader)-

So, now for people to e thanking me for all the work I have put into the Amino, and saying that I make it a great and fun place that they love...well, it just makes me really happy to see my hard work getting noticed? Like my efforts actually mean something? sweatdrop

But what's more is that lately I have been talking to the group about my fan-fiction. It's not uncommon for me to write some sort of fan-fiction and/or have a head-canon for any video-game that I play...but I guess I forgot that compared to some, I am actually a really creative person. I used to get praise for my roleplaying, my poetry, and my stories all the time...but then I started dating people and getting involved with people that did not write, that did not role-play...and I guess after awhile it was just a thing I never did anymore.

It was only about a year-ad-a-half ago I started writing again, and it was only recently I was thinking about getting back into the role-playing scene. So...idk. But suddenly my ideas and headcanon are being praised! The group loved my couples and my stories, and wanted to see more of it getting written out...and everyone just seemed so excited...and I just felt so...happy. redface heart

I felt so flattered and so honored and it's rare for me to feel so special. A lot of the time my depression keeps me from taking compliments or really feeling the effects of genuine praise, so, to be able to take those nice things and really let them sink in...it's a big moment for me. It really is transformative in a way. It has me really excited about bringing my ideas to life again.

So, we will see how everything goes. But to those people...I hope they all know how much I appreciate them. They are all so amazing and I want to thank them some day. 3nodding