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More head aches.. lol

Yeah, so I'm back in class again. Yes I'm going back to calling it class and not TKD, because I'm actually in it now. In addition to that, I've got a power point due in 2 weeks and have been pulled into a group of people who are practically strangers to me, 2 of them engaged and ready to leave for 3 days near the end of those 2 weeks. Complete slap in the face. PLUS I agreed to prepare a study sheet for my friend Mon, and I have a take home test due Tues. I'm sure it's possible I can get things done in time.. work on the test while I compile the study... Study my presentation while working on club issues...

Like my last.. 20 entries(?) have been stating, everything seems pretty tossed up and unstable... Today is no exception, ******** that.. this week's no exception..This month! I'm getting mildly angered be the disorganization of it all... and I'm slowly realizing it may be due to the placement of my classes and the fact I commit myself to other peoples desires as if they were my own (sometimes they are though). In addition... I've dealt with more human activity than my tolerance levels can regulate. And the fact that the members of my family are basically arrogance, short temperedness, selfishness, and disrespect, and any other disgusting trait I despise, personified... I'm growing ever violent inside (understandable after almost a year of no class).. Which you can imagine a mild Saturday tkd party will not satisfy..

I wonder now if I can make it to next Saturday.. or if before then I end up exploding... or just working out like a fiend... I'm feeling myself getting...dark... to sum it up... And I'm beginning to think... doing something bad... Might not be so.. bad...

I need a good fight.. I know it.. long... taxing... painful... Some one punch me in the face before I do it first. stare

Ja.