It wasn't until I missed wishing one of my most favorite people a happy birthday that I realized how full my days were. (I even argued it was something important gonk ) I mean sure... It could've been a clue when I rarely ever get on the xbox and take time to waste some odd hours shooting things. Or that I never go out to my other family just did whatever there with them. Or the fact that I hardly see my family anymore even though I still live under the same roof as them. It's is now that I've made a simple jaw clenching, OCD ridden mistake that I realize how enraged at school I was. I go there every morning to learn nearly nothing by lecture, then come home to a pile of homework. I'm fine with spending the required time with my Love, but even during that time, I'm worried and shaken about my next test, or when this or that is due. I'm ******** doing homework there! I'm making study dates with people I just wanna play video games with and find it heart wrenching that I'd rather really choose to study than get pro. I breathe, eat, and sleep school just to ensure I pass with an A. It's unnerving how much it's consumed me.
And now it hits me why I often come one here and do nothing. Yes.. I miss my friends and wonder on and on about how they are sure, I use this as a bridge to see if they're okay... But in the back of my head I can feel a hankering for that engulfing activity of procrastination. In the back of my head the moto plays over and over:
Do you remember when you came here to Rp and have fun? Petridge Farm I remember s .
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Hmm...i guess this journal would be ...welll like any other one...updates of my life...and...err...stuff...to tell you the truth i'm not good at keeping these types of things up to date but i guess i could try! ^_^