Swashbuckles
Scars I get in battle I'm super proud of, like this one on my arm when I tore it open on a metal fence. But the ones I made myself just serve as a nasty reminder, so I'd like them gone.
Thank you! I'll start with cocoa butter since that's my favorite <3
See, I'm the total opposite. I get annoyed with scars I get from work or other stuff like that. But my injury scars are comforting to me. They ARE a reminder, and I think that's why I love them so much. They remind me of a place in my life that I will never return to, and the struggles that I have overcome.
With the cocoa butter, I'd suggest rubbing it on the desired scar twice daily. You probably won't notice much of a difference with just the cocoa butter but it will keep your skin texture consistent and it'll soften the scar tissue so at least if you try something else the skin will already be healthy enough. You know what I mean?
Zlae
You too!
Oh, wow. I had never thought that so many burnt themselves. That's a nice little revelation; I thought I was extremely strange compared to 'everyone else'.
Nope. Burning is extremely common, whether from friction, fire, or chemicals. While perhaps not the MOST common, it still is done quite frequently, alone or in combination with other harming methods. Though, I've noticed people pick one type of harm and stick with it. I was a scratcher, myself.
Rosalindia
Hi everyone.
Warning: This could be triggering to some of you lovely people. Please read with caution.
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My name is Rosa, and as you may have guessed, I'm coming to this thread because I've been a self-harmer for a while now. I've been depressed for six years, ever since I was eleven or maybe even younger? I've had three suicide attempts to date. I've gotten by using a razor to slice my wrists, legs, and predominately upper thighs. I can probably fill buckets with all the self-inflicted blood I've shed. I hate the pain, ironically enough. Seeing the blood and the scars is what gives me incredible satisfaction.
It's odd because nobody in my family is depressed, and there is no history of depression whatsoever. I'm terrified to have children because god forbid I pass down this horrific gene to them?
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Hi Rosa, nice to meet you.
Thank you for being considerate and warning us about any possibly triggering content. That was very nice. I didn't find your post triggering in any way, but I thank you nonetheless. There are people here who may be a little bit more sensitive to that sort of thing than I am.
You mentioned that no one in your family is depressed that you know of. Do you cut because you are depressed, or do you notice it is more out of anxiety? Just curious.
Also, while there has been a suggested hereditary link to depression and chemical imbalances in the brain, there are also other elements at play. Diet can effect your mood quite drastically, as well as hormones and other things like that. I'm assuming you are about 17, based on how long you said you've been dealing with this. At that age, hormones are still going insane, so that may be causing some of the chemical imbalances as well. These things are said to level out at about 25-27 years old.
Another HUGE factor in depression and bipolar disorder (among many, many, many others) is definitely environment as well. Family stress, animosity among housemates and other socially stressful situations can cause a lot of anxiety.
If I were you, I would not worry about passing anything down to your children. If there was a family history, that would be one thing, but since there isn't, it probably is just a combination of things giving you these feelings. So long as you provide a healthy starting point for your future children, there should be no need to worry. =)
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