Song of the Century
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- Posted: Thu, 31 May 2012 23:26:28 +0000
Alpha_Psi_Hero
Thanks! Sorry I was using the app on my phone. I had a reply typed up and ready to go and it deleted.
It really was helpful having a roommate. My first roommate was a huge distraction because we shared the room, and it gave me a chance to get to know a new person. I didn't want her to find out so I never acted on my urges. Eventually they went away. I later moved in with my best friend in an apt., which was nice, but I had my own room. I think to much and let my thoughts get to me. I went a semester self-harming without any help. The only minor support I had was tumblr, which was even more triggering. After I told him the truth, he began helping me reduce my self harm. When I would get an urge I would go straight to him. He would calm me down and I would give him anything I was planning on using.
It really was helpful having a roommate. My first roommate was a huge distraction because we shared the room, and it gave me a chance to get to know a new person. I didn't want her to find out so I never acted on my urges. Eventually they went away. I later moved in with my best friend in an apt., which was nice, but I had my own room. I think to much and let my thoughts get to me. I went a semester self-harming without any help. The only minor support I had was tumblr, which was even more triggering. After I told him the truth, he began helping me reduce my self harm. When I would get an urge I would go straight to him. He would calm me down and I would give him anything I was planning on using.
That sounds like it went great. My friend knows, and she's going to try looking out for when I'm feeling bad because I have never spoken about these things out loud. I think I've only once spoken about anything very personal to anyone, and that's because he's kind of socially unconscious and I had to say "dude, not cool, you're making me freak out".
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As far as the rumor goes, I did speak to my bf. I trust him. His ex has tried to break us up before on numerous occasions. She has trash talked me, and even tried to break up his previous relationship before me. We had to work together in the theatre department. She is leaving though thank goodness. Anyways when I asked him he didn't get defensive; he honestly sounded like he had no idea what I was talking about. The rumor was a he said she said rumor. I think it's more the thought of what may have happened because I will never actually know for sure.
I can understand that. It's good that you feel you can trust him, though. A lot of things like that are misheard or something, and then bad things happen.
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When it comes to distracting myself, I tend to go to my friends. I don't talk about my problems, but just being around people helps. Sometimes I will make myself go to a public setting, so I have a sense of being watched. If it's late I will call or text a friend and just talk about how their day went etc. I leave my room door open when I am at my apt. so I won't be tempted. I've tried listening to music, or taking a shower helps. Eventually I tried out the Butterfly method. It helped so on Friday the 13th I got a $13 tattoo of a dove, which represented my butterfly ( I like doves more). Since the ink is permanent, I promised myself to "keep it alive". Like I said before the thoughts eventually went away until now.
Damn, $13? That's a really good price. Was it a sale? I'm looking at getting a few tattoos myself, at least one on my legs for a butterfly method-type thing; the method doesn't help me, because it's temporary and I can't draw/write anything nicely, but I feel like having permanent ink there would.
Hm, you like music... have you tried learning an instrument? It can take a while to get good at it, but it can get you really involved if you find a few musical pieces that you like to play. I could spend hours just playing music on an instrument, it's fun. I haven't played in over a year, though, except on a keyboard with headphones because my mother criticizes me and I hate the attention, but it's fun.
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Sorry it's so long ^ sweatdrop
Not a problem! smile