I await the day God comes and calls me to his kingdom.. Every day I woke up thinking it would be a new day filled with happiness.. It was for a while.. Until everything went awry. Everything I've hoped for has been decimated. All I am to people is an emotional crutch to get themselves going once again. I'm nothing special. But I'm not a toy to be played with.. I'm not a crutch you can lean on until you're able to walk. I'm a person... But nobody realizes that... The day my Angel of Light descends from the sky is the day the world ends.. Nothing can save me from the eternal abyss I'm falling in to.. My salvation doesn't exist. My salvation was a belief at one point. But it's just a pipe dream now..