As you all know, or don't know. I have clinical depression as diagnosed by a medical professional. No I'm not on medication or anything purely because as much as it pains me mentally I have never once successfully done something to harm myself or anyone near me. Unless you count getting into fights something that causes harm to someone near me. But enough about that here's where I start,
Today is yesterday's tomorrow and tomorrow's yesterday. It's an endless loop of tomorrows and todays. As much as one tries to denounce the existence of tomorrow, one must not think of it as such. Think of it as another today. The today after today. Live on and fight for what you believe in. Depression or not, believe me I have fought endlessly for what I believe in, sure I haven't won much. And everything I've wanted has fallen through the cracks of existence. But does that bother me? Yes it does. It makes me hate my life even more that I do already. But the question is, do I stop fighting for what I want. Answer, No. It doesn't. I fight because there is something to be fought for, giving up has never won any battles in history. It grants satisfaction to the victor and makes the surrenderee a plague to all during the future. Or Present if you choose. Don't give up and be remembered as some poor helpless soul who fought for a while but gave in when the fight was just beginning. Fight it through until the end of your days. I promise you that even if life seems like hell on earth, think of it like this. In Basic Training for the Army, Boot Camp for the Marine Corps, or whatever else. You must crawl through the mud underneath barbed wire and machine gun fire (Not anymore because of Human Rights and s**t but screw it.) think of the machine gun overhead as what happens when you give up and rise out of the mud and water. It's a release, but you lose whatever chance you had. If you stick down in the mud and live with it, you emerge from the other side, covered in the mud and memories of passing through. The Mud is just an obstacle of bad occurrences in the world. Think of them as tests you must pass to continue on life.
This is how I live life every day. Sure I have my moments but I live on to fight another day for what I want in life and I will never give in no matter what others say. Even myself.
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