Ok, this is an edited post, because I feel like I need a place to just spit out my worries without being judged too harshly.
When my partner first moved to Japan (he's finishing his last year of college there, previously to that we have been together in 'normal' relationship for 7 years, in a European country where I still live) I had just graduated from college. The time difference between us is huge, so the only way to skype with him and whatnot was during the day. I knew this would be impossible if I got a job, so I sort of wasn't job hunting as hard as I should have. (Don't worry, where I live you don't get paid by the state during your first year of unemployment, so I wasn't leeching off anyone.) But it made me a little unhappy, spending my days sitting behind the computer waiting for him to come online (because he had college and two jobs he had to manage, and he often forgot to/couldn't tell me on time about hours thant changed and whatnot). So after a while I decided to really put my heart into finding a job, which proved to be a real struggle. But recently, I was able to find a part-time job at a place where I love to work, completely in line with my degree and everything. The only catch was, of course, that we wouldn't be able to talk as much as we used to. I asumed that he knew that I at one point had to get a job though, and I figured since it was part-time we could still talk on the days I didn't have to go to work.
But for the past few weeks we have hardly been able to contact eachother at all. His schedule got even busier, and I'm not as flexible as I used to be (apart from my working hours I also have to have a set sleeping pattern in order to be productive, etc.). So I tried to fill in the gap in between conversations by sending him email. But he never responds, and it makes me so sad. sad For example, I knew for sure he had a day off today. But I had to go to work. And still, even though he had the time, he didn't send me an email. And even at times where we got to talk he didn't seem interested in my new job at all, and was only bringing it up to complain about how we 'never' got to talk to eachother anymore through skype. So now I feel hurt, seeing how I wasted a good 6 months constantly being there for him whenever he needed me, but now having the feeling that he took my attention for granted and isn't willing to invest in other means of bonding and communicating.
Long story short, LDRs are hard kids.
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