• i used to think that id rather feel pain than nothing.
    now... id rather feel nothing... cause the pain was too much.

    i used to imagine a perfect world...
    but now that world doesnt seem so perfect.

    i used to think that life was the best.
    now i wish that death would come and end my suffering.

    the dreams, the nightmares, the fantasies, the wishes.
    they all fade....
    fade... into an endless loop of nothing.
    an endless loop.... i want to escape.

    i wish to be invisible.
    maybe the pain will go away if nobody can see me.

    i wish my body would go numb.
    maybe then, i wont feel the agonizing pain of being stabbed in the back by the ones i luv the most.

    there is no tru answer.
    no true reason.
    no true way.

    there's nothing.
    there's no one....
    that can take all of it away...
    and give me my life back.