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Another sleepless night
Not the same as past time
Not the simple turn of eventless day's thorn by reasonable worries
But a painful reminder of a life time parallel to reality
Why did you have to disturb my peace?
So hard it had been so long it had taken yet I was conformed
But like stabbing knife full of emotions the little that is left of my heart is unscathed
Your velvet voice rumbles in my head, every word written is played in my memory
Why would you do this, is it not enough that a single choice has crumbled a desire to live
My body twitches in unbalanced movements trying to control myself from reaching out
Attempting to comfort the unbinding anger that burns through my veins
Even knowing what I must do to survive your actions is like a mockery to my miserable life
Wondrous thought of unconsumed raged flare up into my eyes
Inconsequent decisions, creating deceptive thought
In a word where so many fall what would a singes boy life differ
But my anger is misplaced and that I know
It was a boy that ripped my being
It was the girl that had been so many times in nightmares or dreams
Someone I could not picture in my mind as her physical appearance no longer mattered
It was thought a reason lacking feeling
A compulsive paginate desire
Filled with love, and lust... stained by anger and pinion...
The future is already broken and cannot be restored in the reality I lived
No touch will ever compare, no voice will ever conform yet reality is unbalanced
My lustful desires, poisoned by self-destructive anger
Made what was one the protective knight ... into the reluctant beast
If the one image, the one thought, the one feeling cannot conform my heart
Than let all that is wrong and despicable take over my undeserving mind
Angels and demons that surround my world in constant battle that unfolds
Where has the light gone from the impeccable dreams?
When only darkness surrounds my thoughts
There are no touch feelings, or soothing touch, or butterfly hiccups
Instead my actions bring heard pounding rush of ardency in evil contempt
Life is no longer the desire to build a peaceful and fruitful future
It's rather a game of master and its puppet
Do you not understand that innocence was lost not when my lips touched thy skin?
But rather when your thoughts wandered though lustful hands
Can't you see that the image that gave me reason no longer existed?
But was replaced by a painful reminder of what has been lost
Condemned by broken promises and unwilling words
This night is senseless.... senseless as the silence that surrounds me
Thoroughly senseless when I'm reminded of the moon that shouted through my window in protection
Senseless as I'm reminded of the midnight eyes that watched me in my sleep
And senseless, when I'm reminded of the purity of a child that laid under my forever protective arms
Why do I move on when I know that tomorrow will be just as lonely as today
How can I bear knowing that a lifetime is wasted with the painful wish to transcend time?
I know what u feel... in a tangible kiss... in a caressing hand, and the sweet sound of a word whispered in your ear
I know that feeling all too well... yet when eyes are met the nothingness strikes my world
Irreplaceable, yet unwanted, unforgettable, yet unforgiving, unwanted yet with a desire imprinted in the deepest parts of my soul
Why has u come back to haunt me, to hunt me in this sleepiness night....
- by Wolf Scar TK |
- Poetry And Lyrics
- | Submitted on 01/15/2009 |
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