• I had them, and then I lost them.
    I messed up the happiness
    that kept my mood up.
    My friends that I could count on.
    No more, as they despise me to
    and infinite end, I can't blame them.
    I was selfish, self-absorbed,
    hypocritical, and too much more.
    Stupid, stupid, STUPID!
    Why did I screw up again as I normally
    do? I just couldn't stop myself from
    making another dumb mistake.
    Now they talk to me
    with spite in their voices, hatred in
    their eyes, and won't pass me a glance.
    Who would want to befriend me anyway right?
    They were right. They warned me, of course I
    didn't listen, I wish I did.
    I regret my mistake everyday now.
    Friendless now, I can't shake the anger off
    my shoulders. I lash
    out at other innocent people and try to blame them
    for what I did. Hmph, foolish.
    I'm simply an idiot.
    I wallow in my own egotistical outlook,
    my own perspective. Not caring about anyone else,
    just me.
    Me, me, me, what about them?
    I used them and threw them away like trash.
    Who am I to use people as I did.
    A great Son of A b***h is what it is.
    But I can only stress to others that they appreciate
    their real friends.
    Don't take 'em for granted, they will truly appreciate
    more than you imagine.
    Don't be like me.............I am an idiot.
    All I can do is apologize and move on......