• There are somethings that you can't speak up about. Even if you do try to tell a friend how you feel all that they would say "oh i'm sorry you feel that way". If you do tell the friend that causes your problems all they will do is deffend themselves and yell at you making them feel like the sad one.

    High school morning-------------

    I sigh and prepare for the normal morning, BAM! " NI-CHAN! NI-CHAN! " oh god melene i think you just broke my spine" .. I turn to look at my friend who stands and laughs. " Ah im sorry ni-chan im just glad to see you!". " yes well please warn me next time so i may prepare myself melene". Opening the door to the lunch room i look for my group of friends, i talk to them for a few minutes. The usual drama and one person is behind it causing it my friend.Kristal. The bell rings and i quietly walk out the lunch room to drama class.

    Social studys Period 4------------

    Walking down the crowded hall i fight my way.Then i Walk up the stairs. I rearange my bag and grab the door handel to the history hall i quietly listen to my ipod and walk into class setting my stuff down by my desk. I look around the class and i see my friend Kristal. Today she decides she wants to sit infront of me and pass notes, while at the same time we have to take notes. She passes a note to me : OMG i got invited to a halloween party! By the guy you like! : I scribble on the peice of notebook paper. : what you did? are you gonna go to it?: looking i make sure the teacher is not paying attintion and i slip the paper back to Kristal.
    :well its a few miles out of town and i'm inviteing you to come with: I whisper to her "no i wont go no matter how tempted i am". the note gets put back on my desk and i open it : yeah me neither: i grab my pencil : i dont want to go what if theres beer there? what if theres drugs? anything could happen:

    The teacher looks at us. no more note passing unless we want to get called out on it..

    Few days later Halloween night with a huge group of friends------------------

    Kristal has her hands around a guy she just met and i think to myself ' your trying to flirt with a guy but you already have a boyfriend?. The group waits outside a ittle store waiting to be picked up. I notice Kristal is walking up to me she tells me something that makes me want to cry and i feel betrayed that she would yell it out loud... " HEY YOU KNOW THAT GUY YOU LIKE YOU KNOW SHANE WELL I LIKE HIM TO!". She walks off to go flirt with guy she was with eairler.

    whats going on in my head while safely in my room------------------------

    why would she say that? its just like last year when we saw the guy i liked and she draped herself over him!. Can i have a time when i can like a guy and try to talk to him without her trying to!....ugh!!. I can't take it...Why does she use me?...

    End of chapter one.