Heeeeeeeeey,
Ah, so it's been a while, I am, once again, in english class, and I am so bored.
I'm supposed to be doing a power point assignment, but ******** that.
Hey, so, now I'm going to bore you all with what has been going on in my life.
Enjoy.
Okay, I think I was half asked out by this one guy that's my friend, the trouble is I acted like a complete idiot and didn't even catch that he had asked. It's been a whole week now and he hasn't asked again so I wasn't sure if maybe I was just hearing things or if he gave up, but yesterday and today he asked for my birthday/ sign. Now, this would usually mean absolutly nothing, but I had talked with one of his friends earlier in the week and she told me something of interest. He is really into horoscopes and stuff and she said he says he best with Libras, well I'm not a Libra, so I don't know where it'll go from there. He's pretty cool, a friend for sure, but I don't know...
If he asked again I would say yes, but I have one thought in the back of my mind that keeps nagging me. It's someone else. Damn it I know! I'm so stupid. But I've talked myself through it all last night (while letting Sing the Sorrow, my confusion music, filter me) and I really want this and the other person should be out of the picture. And now he is. But I'm afraid it's for the wrong reason. I want someone to be there and to hold me. I want a romance. It sounds so stupid, but it's completely true. I'm afraid that I'll say yes because of that and not because I like him. I know, I don't deserve any of it... Damn me and my complicated woman mind...
I've decided though, if he asks today, which, most likely it'll be during PE (we have it together and that's when he asked last time) then I'll say yes. I really want to. I'm kind of hoping he will...
Wanting to feel you,
Holding me tightly to you,
I'm always dreaming.
Holding me tightly to you,
I'm always dreaming.
