Welp, I still journal here and there but now its more private. I got bored though. I figured no one knows me anyhow and, lets be honest, I'm not that interesting.
But, I need an outlet or something. I don't quite know. I haven't been online in a long while. I also quit social media because it was creating so much unwanted pressure for me to keep drawing that I haven't drawn anything in 2 years!
Its very sad. (;´༎ຶД༎ຶ`)
It's also when I got promoted at work so now I'm a manager and struggling with my cashiers and trying to be a boss when I am just the opposite type of person since I'm pretty much a doormat...BUT I digress.
Things aren't all bad. I have my husband...which still feels weird to say! Its been a year and we've been together for 6. Before that, my ex was pretty much a pile of crap that I was blind about and made me get off gaia.
I should probably get some therapy...but for now I'll be fine.
All the friends I had on here, a lot of them irl friends, are gone.
That's okay!
I live by the "it could be worse" motto.
So, I went to the beach the other day and it was overcast, my friend didn't show up, I waited 3 hours, didn't get tan like I wanted...BUT I did see a bunch of dolphins and seals...which is pretty much just the dorsal fin of about 4 dolphins and 2 seals heads poking out. Hanging out with my love was nice too.
I try to have fun.
Try being the key word.
I just don't want to be a Debbie Downer!
Even though I write so vaguely...bear with me!
I've been trying really hard to get a grip on my reality here.
If I don't sound right its because I'm overthinking!
I'll get there eventually!
But, I need an outlet or something. I don't quite know. I haven't been online in a long while. I also quit social media because it was creating so much unwanted pressure for me to keep drawing that I haven't drawn anything in 2 years!
Its very sad. (;´༎ຶД༎ຶ`)
It's also when I got promoted at work so now I'm a manager and struggling with my cashiers and trying to be a boss when I am just the opposite type of person since I'm pretty much a doormat...BUT I digress.
Things aren't all bad. I have my husband...which still feels weird to say! Its been a year and we've been together for 6. Before that, my ex was pretty much a pile of crap that I was blind about and made me get off gaia.
I should probably get some therapy...but for now I'll be fine.
All the friends I had on here, a lot of them irl friends, are gone.
That's okay!
I live by the "it could be worse" motto.
So, I went to the beach the other day and it was overcast, my friend didn't show up, I waited 3 hours, didn't get tan like I wanted...BUT I did see a bunch of dolphins and seals...which is pretty much just the dorsal fin of about 4 dolphins and 2 seals heads poking out. Hanging out with my love was nice too.
I try to have fun.
Try being the key word.
I just don't want to be a Debbie Downer!
Even though I write so vaguely...bear with me!
I've been trying really hard to get a grip on my reality here.
If I don't sound right its because I'm overthinking!
I'll get there eventually!
