I was reading through a few of them. I can definitely see a difference in the me then and now. Maybe that's why it's good to write in journals. You can really see how stupid you used to be. or just me. Its interesting to read the old dreams I used to have. Like the kind you see when you're sleeping.
I used to have so many. I still do, but I stopped writing about them.
I told myself I'd write in them as long as I can, but I've stopped. :T
I'll get back to it.
I noticed people don't read my journal on here either, so I guess I'll be more open.
The first time I wrote in a written journal was 6-2-12 ('Purpose'), and the last time was 18-18-13 ('Purple'), and in that time span I've changed so much. And I'm also still pretty much the same. I guess you could say I feel less sorry for myself. I have little regrets.
Let's see..have I said I've given up on Alex, that one dream guy I had?
Yep..it was a big step.
Travis too..who was another.
No one's really interested, and I'm not really interested in anyone in school.
College is still an interesting experience, I've got finals this week.
I was reading an entry that was written the day before I went to the park with all my friends and it says the person I was looking forward to the most was Calvin.
Haha..the entry after that, I got so sick! It was definitely psychosomatic since we had just broke up..I'm pretty weak.
I'm doing better though, really.
I only hope my friends are too. In these journals I go on and on about how I hope they're fine, and how we'll never be separated, how I'll always want to see them...it's true, still.
I don't care if they change, or if they move on..maybe they stopped caring but I don't care..
Ugghhh..I really miss them.
It sucks..
Well..I'm not sure what else to type about..
Hmm..I'm not looking for a boyfriend anytime soon, and I honestly can't see anyone being interested in me. They like outgoing girls, I guess..and even though I'd like to know how it feels to have a boyfriend..I know it's not anytime soon.
There's a guy who I've seen a few times, and I'm not saying I like him, because I know nothing besides his name and where he works..but I get sooo damn red when I see him..it's stupid because we'll probably never talk to each other..guess that's it..had to let, at least, that out. Since I felt like an idiot about it. He probably doesn't care..
Arctic Monkeys - When the Sun Goes Down
Who's that girl there?
I wonder what went wrong
So that she had to roam the streets
She dunt do major credit cards
I doubt she does receipts
It's all not quite legitimate
And what a scummy man
Just give him half a chance
I bet he'll rob you if he can
Can see it in his eyes,
Yeah, that he's got a driving ban
Amongst some other offences
And I've seen him with girls of the night
And he told Roxanne to put on her red light
They're all infected but he'll be alright
Cause he's a scumbag, don't you know
I said he's a scumbag, don't you know!
Although you're trying not to listen
Overt your eyes and staring at the ground
She makes a subtle proposition
"I'm sorry love I'll have to turn you down"
He must be up to something
What are the chances sure it's more than likely
I've got a feeling in my stomach
I start to wonder what his story might be
They said it changes when the sun goes down
Around here
Look here comes a Ford Mondeo
Isn't he Mister Inconspicuous?
And he don't even have to say 'owt
She's in the stance ready to get picked up
Bet she's delighted when she sees him
Pulling in and giving her the eye
Because she must be fu--ing freezing
Scantily clad beneath the clear night sky
it doesn't stop in the winter, no
Around here
They said it changes when the sun goes down
Over the river going out of town
What a scummy man
Just give him half a chance
I bet he'll rob you if he can
Can see it in his eyes that he's got a nasty plan
I hope you're not involved at all
Who's that girl there?
I wonder what went wrong
So that she had to roam the streets
She dunt do major credit cards
I doubt she does receipts
It's all not quite legitimate
And what a scummy man
Just give him half a chance
I bet he'll rob you if he can
Can see it in his eyes,
Yeah, that he's got a driving ban
Amongst some other offences
And I've seen him with girls of the night
And he told Roxanne to put on her red light
They're all infected but he'll be alright
Cause he's a scumbag, don't you know
I said he's a scumbag, don't you know!
Although you're trying not to listen
Overt your eyes and staring at the ground
She makes a subtle proposition
"I'm sorry love I'll have to turn you down"
He must be up to something
What are the chances sure it's more than likely
I've got a feeling in my stomach
I start to wonder what his story might be
They said it changes when the sun goes down
Around here
Look here comes a Ford Mondeo
Isn't he Mister Inconspicuous?
And he don't even have to say 'owt
She's in the stance ready to get picked up
Bet she's delighted when she sees him
Pulling in and giving her the eye
Because she must be fu--ing freezing
Scantily clad beneath the clear night sky
it doesn't stop in the winter, no
Around here
They said it changes when the sun goes down
Over the river going out of town
What a scummy man
Just give him half a chance
I bet he'll rob you if he can
Can see it in his eyes that he's got a nasty plan
I hope you're not involved at all
