tessellaite
SinfulGuillotine
Welcome!
I wasn't diagnosed until I was....I think 26 or 27, and the first events that likely caused it started when I was about 15. I just firmly refused to seek out any kind of professional help until my partner basically dragged me kicking and screaming (not literally, but close) to a psychiatrist a couple weeks after a failed suicide attempt. Denial can be a powerful thing.
Have things gotten any easier for you, or at least less confusing, since you've been diagnosed?
I'm sorry to hear about the past suicide attempt -- that in itself can be traumatic. I'm glad you're still here tho!
Things were really rough when they first added PTSD to my diagnosis'. Among my disorders are bipolar, borderline personality and major depression with psychotic features.
It took awhile but things are getting better. I'm not currently in therapy as I relocated yet again in order to attend college; so I don't think things have improved
because of my diagnosis. But since then, I've had some realizations that make things a little easier -- plus, the mediation is playing a big role in me not trying to off myself again.
So I think it's a combination of things really. I'm still confused about some thing tho.
How about you -- have things gotten any easier or became clearer since being diagnosed?
Eh, I guess so. Maybe. I mean, things have gotten better since I was diagnosed, and I'm sure that part of that is due to therapy, but a lot of it has just been time-related. I'm honestly not sure I would have made much progress if I'd opted to go to therapy sooner, just because I don't think it was something I was ready to talk about.
In a nutshell: I'm not sure the diagnosis itself helped me, but I do think that both the resulting therapy, and the timing of said therapy has certainly been helpful.
Although I find myself reaching a point lately where I'm just getting really sick of dealing with it. It's been long enough now, even since the more recent set of events, that I'm becoming pretty frustrated that I can't just leave it behind once and for all. Or maybe I'm just frustrated with life in general right now, I'm not really sure. Probably both.
Therapy is certainly helpful, though, especially if you can find a mental health professional with whom you mesh fairly well.