Dirty Little Secrets [Announcement 11/8/2023]

Before I go, I've got to know:

Is that what you mean to say?	29.2%	[ 746 ]
Before I rise to my defense,	5.0%	[ 127 ]
Before I speak in hurt or fear,	5.6%	[ 142 ]
Before I build that wall of words,	4.3%	[ 110 ]
Tell me: did I really hear?	10.2%	[ 260 ]
Words are windows, or they're walls,	9.8%	[ 250 ]
They sentence us, or set us free.	6.2%	[ 157 ]
When I speak and when I hear,	2.9%	[ 75 ]
Let the love light shine through me.	26.8%	[ 684 ]
Total Votes:			[ 2551 ]

[Butcher]

You're so inconsistent.
I should know better than to rely on you.

[mewkittyy]

an even better day.

we took all our breaks together, and even went to get a cheeseburger on our lunch and then he asked if i could give him a ride home because it started POURING.

tomorrow we have inventory and it's a later shift so he's gonna bring a change of clothes, some movies, and he's gonna shower at my place after and spend the rest of the night with me.

AHHHHHH!!! > w<

[no scheisse]

depression is getting significantly worse. i cant text my therapist back.

[no scheisse]

im never gonna feel better. even if i talk to her. my life is actively being ruined and i cant do anything about it. it always feels like im under fire. i cant keep doing this slow crawl towards doing one more month of this, and then another. i even try to take it one day at a time. and i dont make promises to myself to think about next week being an existing thing. its too exhausting to think about.

because it depresses me to think i have so much time, and so much of absolutely nothing. and nothing to show for all the time ive spent being alive so far. nothing but trauma and baggage and bullshit.

[IXI CLOWN IXI]

I wish you were here…
So tired of seeing everyone with their half
I’m jealous
I must be patient
But goddamn I feel half made
Incomplete
Until your fingers are between mine

[no scheisse]

i feel like a huge crater is inside my heart where things are supposed to be. where everything was. now im just devastated and id do anything to get out of this now.

[Socuteboss]

[Misanthropic Majesty]

Hopefully just one more day until I can get back to a sense of routine. This weekend is going to be all ******** up because of Easter, too.
April. Let the seeds blossom in April. March was too turbulent.

[Beasty]

I don't get paid enough to deal with this s**t... Why do I have to do so much for the same pay as the b***h that gets away with barely doing a thing?

[diseased spirits devoid]

Today was the worst day I've had in a long time at work.
My poor ego is too sensitive. Too terrified of being perceived as stupid or incompetent.

I ended up bouncing back just fine, but man...

[Selunite]

i came home, felt like death, promptly became a burrito

he came home, felt like death, and immediately got up to make us dinner

i'm so spoiled


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I gave the bird a bath and am letting her have some 'outside' time - which mostly just entails her yelling at us from a higher position than usual.

[ScreamingTrashCat]

It’s been nice having Bun back in my life again.
Her and her bf Zera have been so nice playing games with me and keeping me company nearly every day.
It feels very safe and comforting especially while I’m still in a very emotionally vulnerable state.
Little things have been setting me off into depressive hole but they manage to pull me out.
It’s nice to have good friends. :c <3
I do wish to some day have what they have with someone,
Someone who makes me feel safe and loved.

[c a a p t a i n]

I miss Mitch.

confused

[Misery Mannequin]

Seriously? You think you can out petty me?
Lmao, guess you decided to ******** around and find out.