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Snow... Such a weird thing. Was this normal for America? Not that Japan did not have it but she had heard that it was suppose to be brisk whatever that meant. This was cold with snow. If that is what brisk meant they could have just said cold. Sometimes she wondered if people enjoyed mocking her. People back home did it why wouldn't someone stuck in an airport dealing with erratic people do it when seeing someone like her? She waited for her answer and was surprised by it. He seemed to hate it so much but then again maybe it was frustration rather than hate. Who was she to assume. She noticed that Maya seemed to be tired. Perhaps meeting so many new people had worn her out. Cold weather also tended to put people into a hibernation like state. At least she knew it used to when she was a child.
Suddenly at her second comment he looked at her with a cocked brow. Did she say something wrong? Or maybe her English just was bad... She did not have the heart to ask it again in English or Japanese. She had gotten enough answers out of him really. In a weird way perhaps she was glad he did not understand and yet... She had hoped to get some answers. In a way look into the world of what her brother had to deal with... Deal with her. She saw Felix looking towards the balcony. He suddenly began to speak. He said he did not mind helping her out right now and was positive that Evie was not either and then asked what her plans were. It made her pause. Before she could really think of an answer seeing she had none he asked if she had ANY family here even stretching as far as friends.
To that she looked down at her lap. "I have no intentions of taking more than you can give. I already am ashamed for taking as much as I have." She said with a small frown. She then looked out at the balcony. "I plan to live here. That is as far as it goes. I had to leave Japan... Or else I would have been forced to marry someone I did not know. I said it was complicated... I-" She stopped why was she doing this? She could be falling into a trap but this little girl drooling so innocently on this man's leg... That woman so kind and sweet. She wanted to cry. However her gaze remained serenely on the snow that remained in the New York air. "... I am the younger of two twins. My brother and I were part of the Yazuka..."
She felt her fingers dig into the lap of her silk kimono. "I loved my brother but I guess he grew to resent me. I was her body double. What more could a father ask for then a twin boy. He got a girl good enough. I was to take any killing blow and keep his son, his heir alive... We used to switch places. Hikaru and me... Hikari is my name. I was given his name after he ran away. I should have saw it. At first it was just games. Switching place to confuse everyone but then it became for longer asking to do it more. When my father took it to far he ran away with a lover to Europe. My father tried for another boy. It was to late he was to old. None of the women wanted to give their children up anyways." She took a moment to catch her breath.
My mother hated him for it and of course went to leave. She left but it was likely by his means... So I became my brother until it was obvious the facade of me being a man would not work. I was to marry someone who would take the name and the bloodline would continue with me and this man I did not know. I wanted to be brave like my brother... He probably hates my guts but I still love him." She gave a almost bitter laugh. "Any family I have wants me dead. I want never allowed any friends. I moved here to run away from the life that likely would have killed me. If I am to die I will die in America. I will fight to live but I will not die in Japan or do my father's bidding anymore. If it means dying in the streets of this place so be it." She then looked down at her kimono and noticed the wrinkles.
Straightening them out and feeling the burning from having her hands balled into fists for so long she avoided looking at Felix. "Sorry to bore you. Like I said it is complicated... I appreciate all you have done. I am not looking for more than anyone is willing to give. I plan to take life a moment at a time. If it kills me so be it." She said with resolve. It probably sounded stupid but it was the only thing she could do. Maybe she could work at the mall or find another place to work. She would need to find clothes of course unless they wanted her to dress up. Maybe they had places that could use someone who spoke Japanese and dressed the part. As for why she spilled her guts she had no clue besides needing to get it off her chest. Hikari... Hikari was dead. Hikaru was missing in Europe but at least there was another one running around America.
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OOC: heart
Mood: Sad
Location: Felix's Sister's Apartment
Company: Felix/Maya/Vivi/
Current Activity: Talking... Kind of...
Current Thoughts: Evelyn is very kind
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