• >>>on loneliness
    i used to cry at night because of the utter loneliness i always felt whenever i was about to sleep. i cried because even in the company of my friends, i felt this nagging thread of invisible rejection, of never being totally understood, and of always having to pick myself up because i was scared nobody would get me out of the hole if ever i would fall.

    >>>on friends
    i never believe anything could last forever, including friends. but they come pretty damn close. many times i thought a friendship was over because we never saw each other again nor even keep in touch. many times i thought that the friendship we shared would just be a beautiful picture in an album, fading in time. but in these many times i thought so little of friendships, i was always proven wrong. friends come and go, friendships move on but one thing i've learned so far, friends and friendships are the only things in this world we can always get back with, go back to - and continue where we left off.

    >>>on falling in love
    seven years ago, falling in love was for me the most beautiful thing there was - something that makes one look forward to every new day.. fast forward to the present, it's unfortunate that such view on love and falling in it is replaced with uncertainty and fear. uncertain because falling in love now is not just about loving the person but also making a choice and fear because you might be loving the right guy but making the wrong choice. perhaps one of the biggest misfortunes i have is being too scared to fall in love again because there is always a lesson to be learned at the end, and lessons are never learned without tears.

    >>>on graduation
    i'm excited but again, the pessimist in me always manages to sour things. what will happen after graduation???? after all the fun and novelty of being fresh grads fade off and we are left with nothing more than an unemployed tab to our resume? it's a reality and it can happen. it's something to ponder about.

    >>>on God and religion
    i was born to my religion but it was on my own will and choice that i offer everything that i have to God. my friends don't see me as the girl who attends mass every Sunday because the reality is, i don't. i'm not religious, and i don't even know if i can be considered spiritual. all i can really stand for is the fact that despite all my shortcomings on this aspect, i believe in God and i believe that everything happens for a reason, for His reason.

    >>>on guys and boys
    damn. i am not liking the fact that my seemingly innocent infatuation with him is starting to become more serious. no no no.

    >>>on puppy heaven and materialistic tendencies
    i want a chow chow big time. but i'll settle for their wallpaper if it's in a macbook.

    >>>on ME
    i'm complicated, moody, bipoler, tactless, impatient, manhid, childish, maldita, silent type, boring, and stubborn. i'm sometimes too open-minded for my own good, too naive to be in the know of useful infos, and too trusting yet a bit too cautious. in other words, i'm unpredictable at times, too eccentric to be considered ordinarily normal but too tame and passive to be considered crazy. that's bing for you, thank you.

    emo