I’m doing much better now, I started taking antidepressants and also found myself a new pet, or at least in charge of this little critter.. I saved a large beetle from foot traffic in my city at the bus center but found out it’s a destructive pest in larva stage so I can’t release it to breed since we have a lot of farmland here and my dream is to have a farm. So I’m keeping it until it dies of old age since it lives for a few months at most. It’s a male ten-striped june beetle that I named Oberon. If you have discord I can show you pics! Pm me if so or some other social media.