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I dunno if it's just me, but my mood often depends on my music. I practically live off of music and if I fill my head with the right tunes, then it'll probably decrease the amount of time I spend dwelling over things that don't even matter that much anyway.
You may have noticed that I started a new playlist.
Sure, it's got the same rockingness as my old playlist, but with a bit of a better message. Get the drift? I can rock out to Jesus! XD
Yes- most of the songs are Christian rock. There's also just a lot of songs that make me feel better when I hear them- like various John Mayer songs and whatnot.
I live by music. And this music makes me feel a lot better than I used to. It's "Optimist music", I suppose.
Mm hm, I'm on cloud nine at the moment. Considering my current circumstances, the old me would just sulk around and pretend I'm fine I guess to get sympathy or whatever. It's something I'm now ashamed to admit I've ever done.
Because I have the most awesome best friend ever who lets me be 100% real with her and not fear her thinking of me less. ]
And, in addition to that most-awesome-girl-in-the-universe (you know who you are wink ) I have Jesus! Someone else who I can be entirely authentically real. Even if I think some of my thoughts are bad-- I can share them with these two people!
I'm so lucky! most people don't even have one person- someone who they put up absolutely no fronts with, but I have two!
Plus my mother. While there are things I keep form my beloved mom, she pretty much is always informed on the situations with my friends and the complications I'm encountering in life and, let's face it.
She's got more experience than me when it comes to this odd little business we call life, so she's got a lot of advice to offer. And my mom's smart, so don't think you could ever pull something when she was around. Trust me.
It may not be much, but I'm making these changes in my life- one at a time.
I can feel my heart beating again, a sound I thought I would never hear because I wasn't good enough in so many areas of my life.
I don't know if anyone's read the newspaper today (like it's the same everywhere =w=) but there was an amazing article in it that I just loved. There was this girl in a college softball game.
She hit her first homerun ball ever, and as she was rounding base 1, she hurt her knee and fell down, unable to walk or crawl or anything. The Umpire made it clear to her team that if they helped her then they would be disqualified. Just as she saw her own moment fade, She was picked up.
By memebers of the other team.
The girls picked her up and rounded the last of the bases with her-- "an act that contributed to their own elimination from the playoffs".
Isn't that so awesome? I mean, most of what I see these days, it seems like the pride of humanity has gone way past help. but look at these girls.
The other team! They helped her, just so they could lose the game! Sorry to make another bible reference (actually I'm not sorry) but it reminds me of Jesus! Yep. He let us kill him so that he could be our friend. So that we could be forgiven-- in other words, he let us finish him off so we could be saved.
And I'm not supposed to think that that is the most awesome thing ever?

... It's gonna be a good day, isn't it? ^^