Why is it that the people you care about the most are the ones that hurt you the worst? How come one minute you feel like you're their entire world and the next they could care less if you fell off a cliff? How come I'm with somebody who makes me more angry than anything else? He gets to me, just crawls right up under my skin and bothers the crap out of me. He's like a bug bite, getting worse before he gets better. He's always bringing up my ex, asking me why I'm not with him. I finally blew up at him and for once in his entire life he didnt have anything to say. I told him I liked him more than I ever liked cody and I wasnt going to go back to someone who was always disappointing me. I screamed at him, asking him what the hell he wanted from me. Asking him why he was always so uterly predictable and why he was always changing his mind. I asked him why he wouldnt let me get close and the whole time he never said a word. He's not all bad, he does the sweetest things, like he tells me I'm beautiful and thinks Im "so fricken hot" when I pick up the phone and say hi. (He's a dork what can I say?) Or how sometimes no matter what he said five minutes before he can make up for everything with a simple sentence. I don't know if its love or if I'm just losing my mind.
the_coolest_loser_ever · Sat May 28, 2005 @ 03:57am · 1 Comments |