My Dad has been gone for a whole week for business and he won't be getting back until wednesday. Since he's been gone there's been a huge relief throughout my house. Mom isn't around much so it's just me and caun.
I love John and I want to spend time with him but when we get together I feel like crying and laughing and screaming all in the same moment. I just don't understand. I'm pretty sure relationships are supposed to come with all these emotions but they're scaring me. I don't think much about the future because highschool graduation still seems like it's lightyears away. I don't want to not be with him. But I also think being without him would make things a little simpiler for me. (Is 'simpiler" even a word?)
Katie and I aren't fighting anymore but we aren't really talking either. I miss her and I'm worried about her.
People are changing so much thesedays. Some of them for the better but most of them just make me wish for yesteryear :]
Alright so now I' thinking I need a project or something and I think I want to make a documentary. About me duh because my life is so interesting neutral
Okay, I'm done for now.
· Sun Aug 28, 2005 @ 04:36pm · 0 Comments