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 Posted: Sun Oct 21, 2012 10:04 pm
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- I was kissed by a boy....and I liked it.-
Solo
Little time had passed since the incident and the shifter Takoda was still in a state of shock. There was something about the last couple of days that had the shifter stuck in a state of rerun. , replaying in his mind the conversation that had lead up to his being kissed. Sitting in his own little corner of cave by himself the shifter felt that he needed time to himself. Often re-running that kiss over and over again in his head as if something may of changed with each replay. Fingers touched his lips lightly as if it would help re-create the sensation of the leaf boy, Jacinthus, lips against his own.
It made for a very poor substitute for that was certain.
To be honest, it...had never occurred to him that someone from another tribe could like him, and that it was a man for that matter had blown his mind. Actually having anyone interested in him seem a surprise, he was so timid and weak what would be appealing about that? He could keep belittling himself to the point of calling himself worthless, but never mind someone being interested in him though, what would everyone think? What would his own tribe think?
The shifter lowered his hand from his face, pulling his limbs in close to his body as if to try and keep the warmth in. It was a troubling thought, thinking of him. A thought which bothered him the most as he pondered the bullies, the ones that teased him for his fears of insects... Jacinthus hadn't teased him though, in fact Jacinthus had invited him to live with him in Tale. It had been an offer he had immediately balked at. Why? Why did he hesitate? Why shouldn't he take up Jacinthus's offer? Despite how much he was teased in his home, could he give up the only place he had ever lived?
Worrying was one of those things that tended to wreck special moments like this and Takoda was a persistent worrier.
With a heavy sigh, he removed his arms and hands from the warm and protected spot against his chest, he rubbed his face, perhaps trying to stiffen his fingers, or ease the tension headache he could feel building up in his face from all the strange expressions he was sure he was making. Another deep breath and he had to remind himself to let the air out.
After a moment of deep though he came to a conclusion. Takoda knew, deep down that he could not abandon his home. There were still many things he needed to go over. Takoda almost wished he had some paper and a quill which he could then make a list...though he knew that that particular list would most likely end up becoming scribbled and crossed out a lot. What things he would want to bring with him? Would he leave Zuko there? He doubted the giant insect would survive well in Tale, after all it got too hot and dry there. If that was the case then should he leave his home in someone's care? Perhaps he could ask Enitan or Chalcedony to look after it for him. Thinking of the shield barer made his feelings of elation and worry implode. Right...Chalcedony.
A wince, he could feel that his face twist into a sour and pained expression. Thinking back on how the shifter had reacted upon finding out about the kiss...and even going as far to pick a fight with Jacinthus coming back all bruised...then to find out that not only his good friend had been jealous...he had feelings for him as well. Takoda could still remember the tone of his voice, the expression on his face when he had confessed his own feelings for him. How Takoda had not seen it coming...had not anticipated it...made him feel almost stupid...plus made him feel like he was a terrible friend.
Thinking back before they went on their travels...Chalcedony had stood up for him against the bullies, had taken him to his family introduced him as an equal. Then when they went went into the forest before they traveled to gather fruit and how Chalcedony had caught him after a dizzy spell of his. How they had laid together in the grass until the dizziness had passed. He had always looked after him, protected him...made sure he was okay when he had his dizzy spells after performing magic. How did he NOT see it coming, especially the part where they had laid together in the grass?
Takoda felt his spirits sink into despair. This was how he repaid his friend? By...being oblivious to his feelings...casting him aside...not to mention how he had reacted when confronted about Chalcedony's feelings and Takoda had burst into tears and undoubtedly had made the shield bearer feel..just terrible and guilty.
After the way he had acted, Takoda wondered if he deserved anyone's affections especially after the way he handled Chalcedony.
Takoda could feel the tears gathering in his eyes and he had to force his eyes closed to stop himself from crying again. No he couldn't possibly just wallow in self pity and hatred could he? Takoda wouldn't be making anyone happy if he did so. In fact he would just make everyone feel bad about him...and since they were to start traveling for Tale soon he didn't want to be the one causing a rift between everyone.
Traveling to Tale.....just thinking about it caused his throat to go into his throat, he was terrified of it. Worried about how should he act, should they be all cuddly? A vision of the archer's hammer wielding sister made him recoil. Okay maybe they won't be all cutesy out in the open. Never having been in a relationship he had no idea what was expected of him either. Would Jacinthus want to kiss all the time? Would..he...just accept that he was timid in this area? That it was just still too new for him? Thinking of the constant glare's he would most likely receive from his sister...made him groan.
Uhhg...right he almost forgot about the girl. Watching his small fire he shifted and leaned his back against the uncomfortable rock wall. The girl was Jacinthus's sister, Keilana. And he remembered her...and she remembered him. They had met once a long time ago..and the meeting had not gone well. He remembered that large branch she had threatened him with and he still couldn't figure out WHY she had reacted so badly to his suggestions about being careful. But now he was going to be forced to travel with her and Jacinthus back to Tale.
It was going to be a long and uncomfortable trip back home he was positive.
Taking a deep breath he wasn't going to get any rest if he sat up all night long worrying about things he couldn't prevent. He needed to gather his things and prepare for departing in the morning and he if didn't get any sleep then he would only slow them down...and probably make the girl even more irritable. Takoda shifted and tried to force himself into moving, his limbs however were stiff from sitting prone for so long. Once up he stretched himself all over trying not to yawn as he did so and then looked to the ground around him. Takoda really didn't have much to travel back with. A few rations, the cloak he had traded his healing skills for and then his book. He hadn't exactly picked up a lot of things on his journey, even if other people may of. He wondered if he was suppose to just cherish the memories he had gathered, as well the many friends and encounters he had met.
Takoda was sad to realize that he would have to say goodbye to those new friends he had picked up. It was...sad he wondered if he would ever see some of them again. The shifter though assumed he could always make the trip back to visit sometime. No one said he wasn't allowed to travel again once he got home now did they? Still...it was a shame, he wondered if he would get a chance to meet up and say goodbye to others that he hadn't seen in a while. Even if he didn't though though he would remember the experience for perhaps the rest of his life.
A small smile finally crossed the shifter's face. Yes he would remember them and try and use the memories to help him in the future. Takoda would try and not let himself despair too much about things, he would deal with Chalcedony when it came to it and try to get along with Jacinthus's sister as well.
FIN ~ Word Count: 1524 |
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Posted: Thu Nov 29, 2012 10:47 am
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Posted: Thu Nov 29, 2012 11:06 am
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- Thoughts and reservations -
Solo
The trip home had been...for the least interesting if a bit depressing. After the last awkward conversation with Chalcedony he didn't see the shifter again...and then their little trio had left, meaning Takoda didn't get a change to make things up to the other shifter. What exactly had he planned on doing? Leave Jecinthus and run to Chal? No...he knew that wasn't going to make things right, and after all he had feelings for the leaf tribe member...and more...brotherly love for Chacedony right? That is what he had convinced himself of anyway. Regardless he didn't like that they had left on such uneven terms.
Though Takoda only brought up a few times with Jacinthus he figured it was a sore subject and didn't bring it up often, he would make sure to see Chalcedony again...once they got back to Tale he would go home to Jahaur and make sure that they had a good talk. He only hoped that Chalcedony would want to talk by that point.
So back to business, the only benefits of traveling home was that the climate was getting warmer It had been nice to travel back into the warmer climates. To be able to shed the cloak he had acquired during the day and only use it for sleep at night. Though the icey looks he kept getting from Keilana, Jacinthus's sister, he felt cold all the time. Not even the soft words or gentle touches from Jacinthus could make him feel more...settled.
By the time they got back to Tale it was hardly any better. Keilana continued to give him the cold shoulder and Takoda begged leave from Jacinthus...or rather excused himself to go back to Jahaur to grab a few things from home. It had been a stressful and teary discussion but finally his wishes were agree'd upon. After all it wasn't as if Takoda was running away, he was going to come back. He just needed a few things from home.
Jacinthus had offered to go with him but Takoda turned him down if only because he wanted a bit of time to himself and he felt that Keilana...wanted some time with her brother. So they parted ways and it wasn't the end of the world, some part of Takoda was convinced it would be, but even as he entered the forest of Jahaur and Jacinthus and his fond farewell still lingering in his thoughts Takoda realized that this wasn't the end...all he was going to do was go back home and get a few things.
Part of him worried that Zuko would be dead, since it had become rather docile and accustomed to him feeding him regularly. Takoda moved through the forest, not a jump..or a twitch at any sound...in fact he had become so use to there not being giant bugs roaming about that ...he actually seemed to be acting like a normal person going on a walk through the forest.
In fact there were moments where he noted a bug or two, but they seemed hardly worth a reaction and this...more than seeing a bug caused him to stop in his tracks. Had...he...actually over come his fears of insects? The longer he peered at the bug, a strange little glowing creature that hardly seemed to know what direction it was moving, the move he felt his skin begin to crawl. Okay no..his fear was still there, deeply rooted in his being, but..it was a comfort to know that he no longer jumped or screamed like a frightened child and ran away at the mere sighting of them.
Moving forward he...ended up taking a lot longer than he had anticipated, finding familiar plants. Roots, and herbs, edible and curable plants that were just beautiful if poisonous. He loved them all and he hadn't realized just how much he missed plant life. Tree's, flowers, ...weeds even, he had missed them all and soon he found his arms were full and he had no where else to put things.
Well...he soon would be home and he would make sure to grab a couple of his satchles and bring back a feast! Hopefully Jacinthus's sister could forgive him if he brought home food. Forced to put down his arm load as he got to his tree home he climbed up and marveled at it. The poor place looked ...abandoned and he felt a pang of guilt. Of course he couldn't of predicted how long it was going to take them for their little adventure but he still felt guilty just the same.
Maybe he should bring Jacinthus here...it could be their...'home away from home' for Jac anyway. Moving inside he noticed the fine layer of dust that had gathered on his things. The hammock he made a note wouldn't be big enough for two...
The thought caused his face to instantly go red. Ah...he ...right. Coughing to no one he cleared his throat. Okay so...a hammock may not be the best or most idle...for...you...well... He should clean up. YES. Clean that is what he will do now. Not think about...other things...
So Takoda went about cleaning his home and was ..'delighted' to find that Zuko hadn't passed away though it was still very much firmly believing that Takoda was his best friend ever. In fact Takoda almost had to push the creature out of his home to make sure a bigger mess wasn't created due to the things 'affections'.
It didn't take him long to clean up the place, for the most part if was just dusty and there were some dead leaves in his home and a few...suggestions of small spider like creatures as well. Takoda was rather proud of himself as he managed to gather the courage to get rid of those webs and not screaming when a small spider was disturbed by his attempts to get rid of its home. He felt a smidge bad yes, but it had to go...he may of gotten better about bugs...but he didn't want it in his house...
Once everything was tidied he got every single satchel he owned gathered in one place. He then had to figure out what to keep there, what to leave and getting rid of every plant that had no hopes of coming back to life. He felt particularly bad for those plants but was glad to see the one he had nurtured after his parents had past on was still clinging to life. He quickly found it some water and hoped it would survive and then figured he will try and bring the plant with him to Tale...maybe ..it wouldn't die there?
Once done he carefully brought down all the items and then quickly placed what tubors and the other food stuffs into his bags. Now that he had more bags he found himself drawn to filling them all before heading back. Which..perhaps was not the wisest choice as it was a lot and it took him awhile to get home...and when there he was greeted only by a really irritated Keilana who only shoved a note into his face in which the girl stormed off in a huff.
Blinking he read it over and found his heard in his throat again, Jacinthus...was gone? He would be coming back it said and not to worry and to not fight with his sister. Some part of him now wished he hadn't gone on this silly...trip to his home..at least then he could of spent the rest of the day with him..but now..he would be gone on a quest...given to him by his villages elders...and who knew how long he was going to be.
Worse part of it all was he was going to be...with Keilana...and they would have to try and be...civil. He knew he wouldn't have a problem doing that...but he would just have to believe that she would try to be civil back, for her brothers sake. Still...he had brought all this food home to share with Jacinthus..(and he supposed his sister) and now there would be way too much. Of course...he supposed they didn't have to cook it all did they?
It was more that he was going to have to ..live with her...and try and find some common ground. Maybe this would be a good experience for them both? Either that or it would be a horrendous experience. Shifting he quietly put the note away in a bag and then began to gather materials to make a fire so he could get supper going.
Sure enough as he started to boil the roots a familiar figure appeared, apparently common ground was food. Neither of them spoke to each other, but the girl was dealing with her contribution to the food, a small creature she had captured and killed. Takoda felt sorry for it, but at the same time it would help feed them so he supposed it wasn't horrible.
Soon the pot was boiling and rolling with the food and both Takoda and Keilana were sitting opposite sides of the pot eating quietly. Perhaps there would be hope for them yet.
TBC ~ Word Count: 1553 |
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Posted: Thu Dec 27, 2012 9:44 pm
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Posted: Thu Mar 28, 2013 9:40 pm
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Posted: Mon May 06, 2013 8:10 pm
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Posted: Fri Sep 06, 2013 11:10 am
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Posted: Thu Sep 26, 2013 11:11 am
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