• No matter what I do I can't please my wife, sex, money, love, romance, friendship, it never satisfies her. One minute I am on top of the world and the next she is complaining about something else. I spent 12 hours recently decorating the house for her birthday by myself to surprise her when she came home from work. She said I should have went to work instead of creating a big mess (even though I cleaned it all up too). The house really looked good too. Our bedroom ceiling was covered in balloons with streamers. Streamers in arches all over the rest of the house, banners, the works. I was so excited to see the look on her face, but she didn't seem happy only annoyed at my efforts. Between her and my job all I do is work. I am not afraid of death, how bad can it be really? I am agnostic so I don't fear retribution from an angry superbeing. I don't think it will be long now and the world won't miss me, but that's ok. I know it is the cowards way out but there is nothing heroic about suffering everyday no matter how hard you try. I am not addicted to anything so I am making a clear decision. It is best this way then she can find the man she really wants in life.