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so chloe pretended to be asleep (strange how her icon never went to idle...) and as soon as she said something in chat, frost just happened to comment... almost like they were talking this entire time, and completely ignoring me... I think he realized he ******** up, because he didn't do it again.

He knows I'm not stupid, and that I'll ******** read his moves 20 steps in advance.

It's cool, I don't care if they're slowly forcing me out of their lives. I really don't. ******** 'em.

She won't need me for much longer anyways, she's already working on an exit plan. Has a strategy to leave asap, probably leave before I even realize it. "I"m going to hondo for something" and then I'll never see her again. Wouldn't surprise me.

That's fine, they deserve eachother. I hope they're so ******** happy.

I hope they're so goddamn happy that it kills them. I hope they're the happiest they've ever been.

Actually... you know what? knowing that my best friends are happy would actually make all this pain and misery worth it. Knowing that they finally have what they've both always wanted, all these long years of secretly wanting to date and totally trying to play it off like it was nothing, that they're finally happy. It's fine, it's cool. Atleast they get a chance at happiness

I blew mine many many moons ago, on someone who killed themselves, and that's it. Chance for happiness gone. Congratulations, you lost the game. You get nothing, good day sir.

It's fine, it's cool. I'm getting used to the loneliness.