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I think the sex just keeps the connection strong
I've been finding it easier to detach the longer we go without having sex, and when I finally do decide to do it, due to a physical urge deep inside, I suddenly feel "normal", like I did when we were dating

So I need to cut that off like, yesterday. I need to cut it off so hard it dies, is reborn, and dies again.

She's telling me in detail about these new exciting relationships she's finding, and about these people who are perfect for her, and who are giving her what I never could, and it's a damn knife in my heart. It's fine, because I guess part of me knows I never was, and never will be who she wants, or even needs. I'm just a temporary, I'm someone who satisfies a mutual need, and a friend, but that's it; i'm not even considered a lover, and I don't know if I ever was.

It's good that she found someone to be happy with. I hope she can find a way to be happy with him, fall in love.. something. If that made her happy and she could forget all about me.. then all the better.

All she's telling me is how much he dominates her, how happy she'd be, and if she visited him, she "might end up living a pet life".. and .. that's great, for her.

I hope she can. I hope she gets that wish.

I also hope I die.





 
 
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