mynameisprenn
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- Posted: Fri, 29 Aug 2014 20:57:34 +0000
so wilson told me that i should be happy with myself. that i should learn how to love myself and not let how others feel about me, affect me emotionally, physically; because in the end, only i can control my own happiness. then why do i still feel depressed? why do i still worry about other people? why do i still wish that someone would actually make an effort to hang out with me? am i that worthless? i guess so. so much of the time when i do hangout with people, esp. girls. i always hear. "yeah so & so is coming later" or "im going over to so & so 's house to hangout" then somewhere down the road, ill hear about how wonderfullly their night went and how wonderful he was.i know that by physical appearance, social skills and everything in between, i'm sub-par. always have, and always will be. no matter how much i workout, no matter how many self-improvement books i read about communicating with people, i will continue to feel worthless. i always will be to the opposite sex. but i deserve this right? they're not the problem. it's me. i'm the problem its for all the wrong i've done in the past. now its come back to haunt me in the present and the future.
yeah. i deserve it.
i think its even worse when it comes to friends, guys and girls alike. bc most of the time, im the one usually left on the outside looking in. no matter how hard i try, no matter how eager i am. thats probably not the right word "eager". either way, when you want to fit in and try to be close with someone, but they don't want to be close to you? its okay the first time. you get over it. but after the 6th, 7th, 8th and so on, it stings.
but oh well. when you're constantly surrounded your own negative thoughts, it gets mentally
daunting, and eventually becomes physically tiring. but once you get past that part, you become numb
to it.
yeah. i deserve it.
i think its even worse when it comes to friends, guys and girls alike. bc most of the time, im the one usually left on the outside looking in. no matter how hard i try, no matter how eager i am. thats probably not the right word "eager". either way, when you want to fit in and try to be close with someone, but they don't want to be close to you? its okay the first time. you get over it. but after the 6th, 7th, 8th and so on, it stings.
but oh well. when you're constantly surrounded your own negative thoughts, it gets mentally
daunting, and eventually becomes physically tiring. but once you get past that part, you become numb
to it.