Dirty Little Secrets [Announcement 11/8/2023]

Before I go, I've got to know:

Is that what you mean to say?	29.3%	[ 748 ]
Before I rise to my defense,	5.0%	[ 127 ]
Before I speak in hurt or fear,	5.6%	[ 142 ]
Before I build that wall of words,	4.3%	[ 110 ]
Tell me: did I really hear?	10.2%	[ 260 ]
Words are windows, or they're walls,	9.8%	[ 250 ]
They sentence us, or set us free.	6.1%	[ 157 ]
When I speak and when I hear,	2.9%	[ 75 ]
Let the love light shine through me.	26.8%	[ 684 ]
Total Votes:			[ 2553 ]

[A Hundred Indecisions]

I really want someone to talk to. I have people who would be willing to talk to me and open to hearing me, but I don't want to talk to them because I don't want to let them in or have them judge me.

I wish sometimes that there were strangers to talk to. I could give a stranger my whole life story and not care. But when it comes to people I know, or people I talk to regularly, I don't want them to know a thing.

[the naughty buddha]

Life's no ordeal if you come to terms...
Reject the system dictating the norms...
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I don't think I'll ever tell him about my past.
It's not relevant anymore, is it?

[Lovecrafty]

Fuzzles. There are so many things wrong with me.
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But you can come over. If you so choose. Be nice
to Tyler~! 'Cuz he might be here. Especially if it's
within the next few days. ->.<- He was chillerz
with you being here, if we hang out at Eli's...
I definitely wouldn't mind dying my hair while you're
here. I have been cutting it myself... Keeping it
out of my eyes. I totes suck wiff a shizzers. :3
Kitties can't use them.

[The Cuddle Bear]

I hope it all works out, even if we don't get together.
I feel like we could have a great relationship either way. <3

[Jayy_Roxx]

One time I feel in love. I haven't been the same since.

[Aeowen Goddess]

.>_>.
There isn't a time where I haven't been nice to Tyler in nine years, I don't plan on changing that.
I think I've said harsh words to him once, and it was over you so you don't have to worry about that.
He wasn't chillerz the other night with me being around you, which was the only reason I was saying I don't want him to...
Wait.
Kitties aren't allowed to tell people what to do.
Stop that.
Roll over and purr or sumfinn. :p
Anyway, I'll do your hair with all the proper approval and all that shiz.

[Chronogenesis]

yum_tea
Ha, what atrocious timing I have.
Okay world, hint taken; I'll try to sleep today.

[Scream Boogeyman]

I'm in such a poor mood.
Early to bed night indeed.

[Iemonwire]

My boyfriend and a bottle of vodka
sound pretty good right now.

[Jayy_Roxx]

And then you lay awake until late hours of the night because the sadness doesn't really let you sleep.

[Vingt cinq]

Oh God, how I wish...
There are no words that express how much I want that.

Please...

[Count Grotesque]

Oh my god it is so hard to talk to people.
A girl in my class is so funny and nice. I would love to be her friend.
But every time I try to talk to her social anxiety kicks in.
I am not supposed to have friends I guess.
I talk to her on Tumblr and Facebook just fine, but in class, nope not gonna happen.
I wonder how I ended up like this.
I dont believe I have always been this shy.

[overfiend thunderchrist]

It's days like this when I don't know what I'd do without Cosmic Horror.

That probably sounds ridiculous, but putting my own feelings and problems in context makes me feel a lot better. It doesn't matter if a girl stopped loving me because one day everything I've ever seen is gonna be eaten by the sun, right?

I have to balance Cosmicist perspective and Secular Humanist caring or else I'll just go completely mad and be no help to anyone.

Christianity never taught me how to balance those feelings. H.P. Lovecraft's fearsome universe just makes everything seem so much less worrisome and so much more precious.

He reminds me that I am not the center of everything and as such I don't have to feel like I am.

That is the biggest relief there is, some days.

[Everyday Arson Man]

So I decided to start smoking on a whim. I figure that nothing's really holding me back, at this point. I could care less about any health concerns, and what good is money to me anymore? Quite frankly, my ******** reserve has run dry. I have no more to give. I just want to feel better.

Well, it was magical. For 20 minutes. Maybe an hour? I dunno, I lost track of time. But all I know is that it stopped the shakes, so I like it.

[Cuddlesome Sesquipedalian]

You're so naive and irritating.
But you're my best friend through it all still,
and I do love you.
This is ridiculous though,
you need to start accepting the fact I am not a social person and don't make friends with everone
It's dumb how mad she gets at me about that.
And there's still the whole Brandon thing.
And we still need to plan excursions for the cruise.
if she stops going out every damn day we can do so.
ggod dammit.
i might just plan my things and she can come along if she wants