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Crushes...yikes
Crushes can be one of the most difficult things in anyone's life. either having one or being crushed on. Go figure i would have both at the same time lol. Ok so i'm going to vent for the rest of this so if you want to read while i rant you will most likey get bored or relate to it. i'm not sure which is the better option. anywho i have had this huge crush on the same guy since the beginning of 8th grade and i am now almost done with 9th grade. the crush is still going strong lol. well i talk to this guy a lot and it seems like we have a connection but i haven't had the best of luck trying to go on a date with this guy. its not that he refuses to go on a date or anything its just that he is a little shy and he seems kind of awkward around girls in general. it might also be that he isn't one of the well known people in the school and apparently i am the only one who even considers going out with him. everybody thinks i'm weird cuz i would like nothing more than to go to the movies with him.( i have a tendency to like the odd guys out for some reason) but anyway i'm finding myself in really awkward situations as it seems guys are starting to notice me and like me. this year is a first for a guy to say he likes me. i was blown away lol. the first time was when this awkward kid said that he had a crush on me since 7th grade. i was a little flattered lol. the second was a few weeks ago when one of my best friends decided that he liked me a few months before and asked if i wanted to go out again after he failed last time and had told me that he liked me and that he was over his omega crush on one of my other best friends. i immediatly knew it wasn't true cuz he flirts with everybody and dates everybody and he is pretty good about lying out his a** to get someone to like him. some friend but he is funny and doesn't mean to do it out of spite it just seems he doesn't even know he is doing it. well i knew for a fact that he knew he was lying to me about getting over my friend just to make me feel like it was ok to go out with him without betraying my friend. i wasn't flattered at all about this one so i told him no and said i wouldn't feel right bout going out with him when i liked someoe else. its weird cuz he already knew i liked this other guy for a really long time. i swear this friend of mine is a strange one. he totally freaked out when my friend Kuma-san(his nickname from me that means bear and it stuck cuz he resembles a teddy bear for me) came up and gave me a big hug for the first time in front of my friends like he usually did before and i hugged him back which i have never given spencer(my strange friend) a hug before cuz you are afraid he is going to do something weird if you do. spencer doesn't really seem to like Kuma-san very much. it might be cuz Kuma-san is my teddy bear in all ways. he makes me feel secure, makes me laugh, makes me feel better all the time, he hugs me all the time (which is really nice cuz he is like a big dude and he just envelopes you when he hugs you) it makes a really cozy feeling when he hugs me. he provides a lot of good advice and he is older than me and my friends and he is just now working his way into my little "cliche" which is easy cuz i hang around a lot of likable people but a lot of them are hug-shy, some from strangers and some just from anybody. thats odd for them cuz Kuma-san is a very huggy person. anyway back on subject( i get very distracted lol) the third time was when a guy in a grade higher said he liked me and he is funny and stuff and i was really flattered with this one but i didn't like him enough to dump my crush on the guy i like to go out with him. not to mention the girl he was going out with before is a friend of mine and according to her he is an omega a**-hole. i don't know why she said it i just know that she did. but the first reason was still my problem but apparently he understood when i told him about my crush for someone else and said that he just wanted me to know that he liked me. not go out. i was sooo relieved about this. i thought that this was the best situation yet except for the part where he is always flirting with me and stuff but i don't mind that much cuz he isnt like stalking me or anything. as far as i know. well thats pretty much it except for the little tid-bit that i'm planning on asking my crush to go see seth rogan's new movie next weekend. yay! i hope he says yes cuz we have gone to the movies before but it didn't turn out quite the way we were expecting. for one thing my mom and her boyfriend including my two little brothers were just a few rows below us and my crush's older brother and his girlfriend were sitting right behind us. not the most likable situation to be in on the first day we went anywhere together. well thats about it and i hope that if you have made it all the way through then you haven't lost any brain cells trying to keep up wiith my babblibg lol. until i have something else to talk about i will try and write descriptions of all the people that i like to write about most cuz they are the reason for these long things lol. trying to describe them all in one thing takes up a lot of room lol. hope you enjoyed it lol.
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