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Today I made a point to take it easy. I went to school and struggled through the day as usual. I guess school and I will really never get along very well, but I guess it is just because I do not like the environment over there.

Sifu came to pick me up for a special Bible study today. He came and checked out the farm for our kung fu festival coming up this June. Everything seemed to work out okay, with the land and all. We went out to eat at cracker barrel. Man did my intellengence drop there. "Would you like your sourdough toast, toasted?" Wow! Anyways we sat around and chatted, touching on a few extremely interesting topics about our class here and there. We were going to go to his house next, but we decided to drive back home of course we went around town for a little bit before he took me home.

We stopped at my house, and he was just wrapping up our discussion, but we ended up talking for hours and hours. The topic stirred me very much. I pretty much spilled my guts about all the things that have pretty much ever really bothered me. The whole thing nearly made me broke down and cry. I can't really say what was said between us just because it was very personal eh... long story. But I will say this I suppose. I feel so much better. I sat and prayedfor a while and just got everything out. I think Ijust sat for a second er... got all teary eyed I guessyou could say, but I just felt like so many thingswere taken off of me. As if there were weights tied tome that had dropped off; it was an amazing feeling! I'll be honest with you I haven't sat down andconfessed my sins in a long while, and I just satthere and realized all that I have done and the thingsthat have bothered me and so forth. I reallyappreciate your help; it means alot to me, and I feelso much lighter one could say. I guess I feel kind ofodd that I felt like crying though. Well this is avery good step in the right direction. It makes mehappy that after all of these years I can finally getback on the right track and start to make a differenceby living a better Christian testimony, still needingGod's help all the way or the testimony would be pointless.

I have only this thought to leave, "Do not let you're demons hold your relationship with God hostage."