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Today was my day off whoo hoo! I rested through the majority of the day and just acted lazy. So there wasn't much in the way of excitement. My mom took me out to get some lunch with Dad and a friend of his. That went fairly well except my mom started chatting her random nonsense again. Sorry I just really dont like her philosophy thing; it just doesn't really work you know? The friend of my dad's wasn't too much fun either. The guy is just way to concerned with the material things. For goodness sake he has sixty watches. What the heck do you do with Sixty watches? My dad and I had a good time discussing the day to day events and commenting on the food and the service of the restaurant. I guess my dad and I become analysists sometimes. Eh my mom was telling her stories again and said that our barn almost burned down. Now I have mentioned the barn incident once before and it didn't almost burn down in my perspective. This causes rumors to begin to build up. I am the kind of person that avoids rumors, just because I would rather not be talked about.

The whole day almost seems like a haze. I felt like I was in a dream, yet I was still very tired. After we came back home from the restaurant I decided to do some training. I trained pretty hard after my run in with my older brother. That paticularly pushed some buttons. I was talking with Jen I think, and my brother came up and with one arm caught me in a choke hold. Now this was a good hold so I couldn't slip out like I normally would, plus it took me by surprise. I didn't even realize that he was out there in the first place. I attempted to toss him off me, but I was starting to lose air and if he wasn't my brother I would have gouged his friggin eyes out or grabbed his packaged and twisted it so hard he would have cried. Yes, that is rather malicious but I dislike being caught off guard like that. So there I was outside practicing my forms, blocks, and strikes. I had to stop sooner than I thought. Some customers arrived, and I thought it best to not practice in front of them, that could have scared them or maybe bothered them either way I was just not going to do it. So I went inside to the house. At first I was bursting with energy, but then I felt like I needed to crash. I lasted a few hours before I finally fell on my bed and wandered off . My dreams are so strange now and days. I have no idea why. They are so vivid and powerful. Almost as if I was there or something. I tried working on my story today too. I had my Mindless Self Indulgence pumped up and I was movin with it. It's so fast and just well... you can't help but start spasing out!

Anyways the progress with my story has been slow, but the quality is good. I have to say I'm almost 5? 10 % through. Now this may seem to be a small number, but the task it self has been momentous for me. It is almost fifty pages long and not double spaced or anything! I am considering putting my story on gaia and the updating it every so often when I add a significant part, kinda like a web comic. I may try to do that, pending on how I feel about the quality of the story.

The rest of the day was spent talking to Dad and chit chatting with folks on Gaia. Marilyn Manson and NIN was the topic of the day for a few friends of mine on Gaia. I was suppose to be going out to talk with my sister, who I have not really spoken to in a while, but at the last minute she canceled on me, which really hurt my feelings. I know I should not depend on her, my dad even gotten a little upset that I did, but I was hoping she would pull through for once. Eh I guess I shouldn't have expected her to keep her promise; she never does. Then she even came home and talked to dad and I for an hour, which really sucked because we could have gone out. Oh well there is always tomorrow. Tomorrow I should be starting back on my Chinese studies, which I did not touch at all this weekend so I would have some sort of break.

Tomorrow is almost here and so I will be getting some well deserved and hopefully peaceful rest. So the thought for today, "Every movement must have confidence and strength to truly be right. For if one lacks confidence then truly one can not influence and enstill such feelings on others." Good night all!