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Okay A little better...
Well me and my boyfriend are OFFICIALLY broken up....and but the guy that I like really doesnt like me anymore and it sucks but yet he still flirts with me so its so wierd so well I made him wait so I guess I will have to wait.....But its hard and now I know how he felt...and one of his best friends hate me so its hard to deal with......I dont know what to do.....and I try not to be mad at my friend "beth" because I know that somehow they are crazy about each other.....and I can see through it because I have been through it before and they think that Ii am so nieve but I am not....and I know that they like each other more than anything and I hate being lied to!! I absoulutly hate it it sucks!! I am so different from everybody! that it bugs me because everybody hates it and it makes me hate myself and Its makes me cry all the time!!! and I cant help it though its sooo hard to deal with!!! People tell me that I should stop being different and it hurts me because my brother tells me that why am I trying to fit in when i was born to stand out but I guess thats just peer presure but who ever knows sometimes I wish that I could just be like perfect I wish that I was actually pretty and I wish that I actually could keep my mouth shut because I cant I speak whats on my mind and its absoulutly horrible....because i get my a** in trouble for all of it and I cant help it though I am honestly just confused but since I honestly got to flirt with the guy that I like then that made my day but who knows but I really go to bed thinking I have everything off my chest everytime I write in here so I am so happy that I have a gaia account and its pretty amazing because I actualy write in it and put my time into it anyways Im gonna go now K love ya lots goodnight!! a girls gotta slepp lol! xd
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