I seem to have a second wind, and I take back what I said earlier about not wanting to play the violin. I want to learn it too badly to just give up because someone was being bitchy. In fact, I think I'll get even better than I originally wanted to, just to spite her, and the world in general. My musical goals for myself just got raised a notch, and it's all her fault. So, take that! Just wait, I'll be in the school's orchestra yet. And when I do...I'll make it a point to get better even when they tell me I'm not good enough. I can do it. They can't stop me.
Yeah, feeling a bit vengeful at the moment...And what better revenge than to do exactly what they said I shouldn't, or couldn't, or am not allowed to do? And do it well, and prove them dead wrong? Nothing. It's the best revenge ever because you prove them wrong and make them look stupid, and you get to do what you wanted. So it works in your favor twice over.
Also, I think I might punch my brother. He was being an a*****e. He was opening the mail(which wasn't for him) and messing with the MP3 player that came, even though it's not his, and the Ipod won't be his either, until I decide which one I want. And then, I'm apparently acting like a 5-year-old because I told him to stop playing in his pudding. He was knocking the spoon on the sides of the cup it was in, and being generally irritating about it, so I told him to stop because he's not ******** 5, and he decides to inform me that I'm acting like I'm 5. So, I'm like all, "I'm not the one playing with my god damned pudding!" and he had no response. He's such an idiot. And then my mom comes home, and he starts screaming at her for whatever reason, even though there probably wasn't one. He's as bad as my ******** dad. He thinks that just because he has a ******** p***s he can order me and my mom around, and put us down, and sit around like a ******** lazy-a** slob all the time. I swear, I would love to just punch my brother in the face right now. And if he's still being a ******** when I go out of my room, I might just do it, even though I'll be grounded, screamed at, and probably banned from doing something. It's complete and utter bullshit. I wonder if he'd still think he was all ******** great and superior if I ripped his ******** balls off with a rope and a car...
But whatever, I'm gonna go do something constructive, and maybe punch my brother, so I'm outta here.
...And ends when the only idea left is power.
