OMFG, Last weekend was the biggest blow job ever!!!! hell i didnt even kno that i would start 2 cut myself again & wut in still cuttin away at myself & wut not but im tryin not 2 raze that blade on myself but hell all the hate & hurt that weekend was over baring & that was the only way i could get rid of it...well there are more 'better' ways but it was the easiet thing 2 do plus i couldnt just walk out on my problems bcuz they'll just find me & drive me even more 2 the other side of life...death i guess but im 2 much of a coward 2 end it myself & would much rather perfer somethin else like i die from an accident or somethin & wut not , but its not a good thing 2 think about the after life not esspecially since its goin good & wut not biggrin but i do wish that some of the stress would ease up, but wutever some of my problems are self inflicted & i need 2 get over that factor as well as stop when im stomach deep in s**t, it would mean less punishment & more relaxments. mmm i relly want 2 go 2 this party at my school & wut not & plus i hope that i get 2 go i havent gone 2 any school dances(i uterly refuse 2 go 2 hoemcomin, i'll never go there bcuz of a pervious affair) & i relly look 4ward 2 the holloween dance heart
QueenJellybean2010 · Tue Oct 24, 2006 @ 03:52am · 1 Comments |