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The past few months have been a train wreck for me online and offline.
First I got sick with Covid during November, was sick through early December and struggling with post Covid symptoms the rest of the month, this is the second time I got Covid and I am double vaccinated....
It's February and I still have random coughing but I don't mind that so much, at least the fatigue is gone.

While being sick with Covid during November, I was running a very large event in a server I mod in for years, and needed back up because I was too fatigued to pass out the 100+ entries to everyone in dms. Luckily my friend who was mod-trainee took up this responsibility for me. Unfortunately she stepped down as an official mod after a few months due to some personal issues I won't go into detail about, plus personal offline life took a tough turn for her. We're still in touch, shes one of my good friends I cherish.

Work in this server has become much easier since we have a new website now that makes my work a breeze compared to before. I am forever grateful of our coder, he's a lovely hard-working lad.

In another server I mod in though that is part of my income as well, a couple days ago was hacked, and many channels were deleted and many users were banned. The person who was hacked was a mod so that is why they had access to banning users and the channel permissions.
A lot of other personal stuff was leaked and caused further damage but we've restored the server with help of the night-owl mods who handled everything while I was asleep along with the creator, my guy. Things are recovering at a slow pace... but we're all still incredibly stressed.
I'm glad people supported us through all this mess though and appreciate them deeply.

I am still under shock and struggling with physical problems caused by the stress, I am still dealing with other stuff on the side regarding this situation too that is worsening my condition. It's why I've taken a step away from my work temporarily to distract myself with rpgs and games... I need distractions right now that positively effect me instead.

I stopped responding to dm conversations that are too stressful for me to handle with my mental state. This year has started off with non stop chaos back to back for me, I feel like I can not get a damn break from stress...
Last year was awful and this year is not getting much better in my workspace online.

Offline has been doing better at least... I was even invited to a family birthday party that I am looking forward to tomorrow.

Sorry if I sound like a downer in some parts of this, life is just really rough for me lately. I can only hope for things to get better and no more obstacles get tossed in my way...

I hope others are having less stress as they push through the beginning of 2023.