You know that moment when two people come together as one. It’s all a bunch of thrusting and it feels absolutely wonderful? Well I’ve only heard that it should feel that way when it doesn’t. Hell I don’t feel anything down there when it comes to having sex with the man I love. But than again I’ve been this way since I first started having sex 11 years ago. I have never, in my entire sexual life, experienced an orgasm. You can ask any of my ex lovers, though, and they will sit there and tell you they made me c**. Why though? Because I fake it. I fake having an orgasm so I don’t make my lover feel like crap. Yes knowing that they don’t get me off would be better so they can improve but when you’re absolutely certain it’s not the guy you’re with but yourself than you can’t help but moan and scream in the non existent pleasure well your partner gets off each and every time.

I don’t know why I started faking it. I just know that the one and only time I told my ex the truth it devastated him. Why should I feel like s**t just to get the gratification that comes with doing the nasty? I like having sex with my lover, but I don’t want to make them feel like s**t just because they can’t please me. Which is funny, if you think about it, because although I don’t get off from the sex I get off because they get off. Yet I still haven’t experienced an orgasm.

I don’t know… maybe something is wrong with me?