so i need to be responsible
i am not sure that i can be
i can not be counted on when things are important
i dont get things done when i say i will
i am given a fall in my lap chance to make some money off of my degree but all i can do is sit here staring at it till it falls away
when i first heard it might be there i was excited
then i was reminded how i never get anything done
and i realized that if i grab this chance there is a strong chance that i will just end up letting it slip and making a lot of people angry
it is one thing if i am working with friends or people i know it is quite a different thing when i am working with businesses i got to get my act together
then again that is why i have not made the leap yet i am afraid the people around me dont build confidence
the guy that told me the offer told me that i dont have the motivation and that i fail at getting things done
he wants me to change i want to change i am afriad of change i am afraid of my situation i am afraid and i need a hug
which is fun because i just got done hugging my boyfriend who drove a half hour just to see me for a little over an hour i luvls him he makes my fear and sadness go away for a small amount of time that i am with him
Fay Da Way · Sat Aug 07, 2010 @ 07:23am · 0 Comments |