well today i missed another plasma donation because my protein levels are too low
woke up at 8 am for it, i dont work till 2 pm
stayed over at joe's house again
he sent me a message last night
joe "Love you" (of course this made me excited and happy and filled my heart with joy, then i remembered how i am not dating him anymore and it caused me extreme annoyance)
i replied "love you too" (though i was not feeling it anymore by that point)
joe "Yay! Glad you do.." (i am confused at this point, joe never says yay)
joe "Want to go swimming or will you be busy all day?" (i see, he is only after me for the pool at my apartment)
i replied " i am not sure how long ____ plans on staying, him n i already went in the pool, and he threw up so i dont want to go back out there for a while" (so that is what this is all about, he just wanted me for my pool, he should know that when I have friends over they stay from morning till late night)
in a later message on steam he also said "yay" again, i dont get what his sudden use of the word "yay" is for
what i wanted to send him "I think i am getting it, u don't mind being around me, so you wont mind living together, but you could never actually love me so you have to keep your options open for other women" (i feel so warm, wanted, safe, and positive about my relationship, everyday at work i am happy because i don't need to be lonely, I know i can always return home to him, and love him forever)
I enjoy loving things that will never love me back...
like teddy bears
Fay Da Way · Tue May 25, 2010 @ 03:29pm · 0 Comments |