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Damn, everything gets better after 1am. What the hell? Got off the phone with sephy, talked about Chloe some, she said, "if she's taking what you guys have pretty casually, you should too -- date others, etc." So I dunno. I'm thinking about it. Not to seriously date anyone.. Maybe fool around some. Nothing too serious though.. no sex. Hangout, flirt.. but I'd stop before kissing.

I consider kissing cheating.. even though i'm single, I'm not ready to go that far, yet.

Also found out an interesting tidbit from Neena. "The reason why your attraction lied solely with her, was because you placed a chastity belt on yourself, and gave her the key. No other stood a chance."

She also told me that -SHE- removed it, after we broke up this last time, which is why I've been randomly lusting after these girls. (Nothing serious. ''oh, she's hot", basically.)

"Love makes the strongest chastity belt, because even without the mental one I removed, you've been faithful." (Neena). Didn't even know I had one, but cool.

She said she would "put it back", but that with my recent predicament, I should take advantage of my newfound freedom, and "explore carnal pleasures of other females."

I won't, not yet, atleast. If chloe does, or dates another guy, then it's free-for-all.. but I don't want sex or kissing to become meaningless yet...

I've also been talking to a guy friend, (RL, we're not close) and I think he broke up with a friend who used to work here...

He's talking about moving to japan if his relationship fails.. and I may go with him. Why the hell not? It's an option, a choice.. so maybe, if things don't look up for me and Chloe, or I start changing even more (doing it already) then I may just move farther away..

Right now though, the plan is missouri. Chloe, Linzy, and a change of scenery. I doubt I'll make a ton of new friends, though.. but hey, I guess Chloe managed to, even though she's been having a hard time.

I may have to set up on facebook.. seems like everyone of my friends jumped there from myspace, and I want to meet new people, damnit..

Oh well. I'm just going to keep working, save up money, get a car, then get a appartment in missouri... the summer date isn't final anymore, i'ts more like, "whenever I feel like it", lol.