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I knew it was coming I just didn't want it to be this soon. For goodness sakes! I'm only 16 years old!!! I don't even have kids yet!! I wanted to live a long and happy life where I don't even smoke! I'm done at 16 and thats not long! For me please let it be forever with Angel. I don't want to leave him forever, nor do I want to leave my friends and the rest of my family!
Tears threatened to leak from my eyes but I held them back. One escaped from my grasp and fell on Angel's jeans. I sniffled then all of the tears came rushing from my face. I was crying a lot lately and I just never seemed to stop.
"Please don't cry, love." He cradled me in his lap, rocking back and forth. He was getting really good at this stuff. I just wasn't all that comfortable in his arms. He was a God and I was a spronny, little mortal compared to him. I have no idea how I ever fell in love with him. But here I was on his lap crying until my time was up.
It took me a while to regain my senses back and when I did I felt horrible. Nothing good ever came out of life. No one really cared for me the entire time I've lived. I should die and just get it over with. No one diserves to suffer. I was going to end my life so I wouldn't have to suffer anymore. That would be the only way for me to finally become happy.
I smiled wickedly from the thought and climbed from Angels lap and started to walk into the kitchen.
"Are you okay?" Angel followed me into the kitchen and stared at me as I drew a knife from a drawer. "What are you doing?! Lilly!"
My body was moving on its own and I had no way of stopping myself. I pulled the knife in front of me and pointed the sharp end to my chest where my frantically beating heart was seconds from freezing until it was beating no more.
"Lilly! What are you thinking?!" He tried pulling the knife from me but I shook him off. I had this weird strength. I pushed him which made him fly into the fridge.
ANGEL!!! I tried to snap out of it with everything in my power, but mentally I was to weak. The knife went back to its original position.
I, something that was controlling me obviously, moved it along my shirt until there was a X over the spot where it was aiming for.
Stop this! I don't want to die! Stop!
I struggled against the restraints, mental ones, so that I could at least drop the knife from my hands, but nothing worked. It was becoming harder to even think now.
Sweat dripped from my forehead. That was the real me on the outside but on the inside I was a horrible monster.
Stop thinking these treacherous things!
No. It was a dark and scary thought that entered my mind. This is the future. You needed to die a few days ago, but no. It must happen now. I must kill myself in order to live.
It didn't even make any sense! What the hell does it mean?!
Angel moaned and stood up all wobbly.
Angel! Help! I have no control over my body.
The knife ran across my flesh and droplets of blood scattered the knife.
"I'm going to kill your precious lover!" My voice was not itself anymore. It was a deeper voice. A mans now. It was weird. I was somehow possesed by an evil spirit.
"What are you doing, Teivel? This is no place for a devil." Angels voice was ferce. I was stunned when he talked beause I've never seen him so angry in the few days I've know him.
"I'm just doing whats should be done." My body shrugged and the knife was put to the side.
That was close...
"Ah, you souldn't be relaxing yet." This was to me apparently because the knife went up to my neck. "I'm still going to kill you."
Please don't! I'm begging you! I only had 16 years to live! I'm not ready to die yet!
"Ah, but you've already exceeded your life span. This is fate for you. Obey the Lord of Death! This is what has to be done."
Yes. You're right. What?! These were not the words I was thinking! I've completely lost it!
"Now I will rid you of this burden." He pointed the knife in Angels direction. "You must be the one reffered to as Ahriman. The evil spirit, the legend of death, ruler of darkness, and further more, my enemy."
Angel growled. "I gave up that name a hundred years ago." He stood standing ready to fight. "How dare you speak of it. I shall kill you. Now come out of her body and face me like a real God!"
A laugh built its way up through my mouth. "You think you can defeat me?!" The knife flew to my chest and nearly stabbed me, but it stopped in its tracks.
Stop this!!!! I hate this!! You can't kill me!! You can't kill Angel!! Don't hurt him! Don't hurt him!!!!!
The knife dropped and crashed to the ground. My body took a step back, hands flying to my head.
"Stop it! You can't do this to me!" It was my voice now. I had semi-complete control over my body. I tried to push the spirit out of my body, but it soon came back taking over.
"Ha! You think you can defeat me!" He repeated. "Try again, mortal. You die now." My body bent down but before it could pick up the knife Angel grabbed it and stabbed himself in the arm.
You idiot! ARE YOU TRYING TO LOSE?!
"With this blade I shall kill you." He slid the knife through his arm and drew a symbol of some sort.
Then he started to chant these words that filled my head. I didn't understand them but they were pulling the spirit out of my body. I could feel the pure heart of mine beat once more then nothing. It stopped and I fell to the ground in darkness.
I was numb. I couldn't feel anything but the darkness that surrounded me. I was dead.


Of course I was dead. It was meant to be... was it not?