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	Fay's Thoughts things i would like to remember
	Fay's Thoughts things i would like to remember

	things to do to you
	things to do to you


why is it that every time i feel my heart may be getting closer to becoming complete somebody i care about rips a gaping hole in it... dammit my boyfriend interupted me while i was righting this so now i can not think of all the angry things i wanted to write something about sitting in the car with you expressing my self loathing explaining how everyone is equal making everyone worthless and how my hate of you makes you double the drag in my mind which means i have no reason to not run into a building during this trip we are on something about forgeting to pic you up calling to say i will be ther in a min then never showing up writing messege after messeg to your acounts spaming the message "fu@K you" lableing everyhting in the apartment that is min as mine and not alowing you to use any of it (though you do not use that much of it anyway, it would still be a pain in the a$$) punching and kicking you untill my pain stops (usually waht i do to john) telling derek you like him you are obsessive ovre him always talkinga bout the life you want to have together making meals and not alowing you to have any leving the dishes in the sink having no intention of cleaning up around the apt, leaving junk everywhere sulking and hateing you forever with a grudge something about how you have so many guy problems everybody has problems i would love to help you i enjoy helping others but the pain you instilled in me it makes me not care it makes me realize the main problem in my current relationship is you any shot at my boyfriend is a direct shot at me you are just like my sister atleast it was a very similar feeling in my heart the reason i had trouble getting over my last boyfriend was because it was not my decision to break up with him i understud it as mydecision later on my sister complained and ate away at my heart forceing me into insanity untill i finally gave up i hate it when people i love hert me i tguess i somtimes care to much things are so much easier when my heart is cold i guess you are not as bad at my sister she made me hate my boyfriend you are just making me hate myself but with both of you it was the fear of having no friends she had promissed me that she would introduce me to new people if i broke up she never did the fear of friendship i have when you hate my boyfriend is like last night everyone stayed in your room excomunicated me you have your own little group that i am not invited to you make me hate them i never get to visit them but when they did come i did not get to talk to them so when they were leaving i seemed cold to them staring at my computer i could not look at them i was too upset but truely i have more isues tahn just u, u just make them worse i cried last night the whol time then when i got over to his howse i cried mor then again in the morning even as i rite this i can not keep tears from welling inside the only thing keeping me from breaking down right here is my boyfriend is in the kitchen makeing me foods that covers most of what i wanted to say i dont blame you for getting angry at me i no longer plan to do any of these i just wanted to get my anger out i hope you have a nice day I do avi art, PM if interested My Artwork Examples/ RP Thread http://www.gaiaonline.com/forum/chatterbox/rp-find-something-kill-it/t.68532621/?_gaia_t_=3934 Fay Da Way · Wed Sep 16, 2009 @ 05:18pm · 1 Comments


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	I need to start reading your journals, first off sorry I should have made an attempt to include you in when I got there and that is my fault. Secondly (this will sound like an excuse and I apologize) I thought we were in her room to give you guys space and intimacy. Third, I still have no opinion of your boyfriend as I have yet to have a conversation with him, so until then I support you! Fourth, I'm getting tired of being the only single one so we need to go clubbing or something so I can dance like a whore with no shame (although where is then a question). Fifth, you're my buddy don't let someone into your head like that! You're a great person and who you date is your issue since this has yet to turn dangerous there is no reason that you should feel bad about who you like! Don't let anyone else affect your happiness! Feel free to respond. Don't let the stars get in your eyes, don't let the moon break your heart. Love blooms at night in daylight it dies, so don't let the stars get in your eyes. Offline Ladydaydream · Community Member · Thu Sep 24, 2009 @ 07:17pm

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I do avi art, PM if interested

My Artwork Examples/ RP Thread
http://www.gaiaonline.com/forum/chatterbox/rp-find-something-kill-it/t.68532621/?_gaia_t_=3934

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