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	Fay's Thoughts things i would like to remember
	Fay's Thoughts things i would like to remember

	word confusion
	word confusion


I like messing with words others say specifically my understanding of these words My mind is an incubator of bad thoughts I feel worthless my friend tries to change my attitude by asking why I think others have more worth than me you know what? they were right if I have no worth others share in being worthless suicide = homicide Always on my mind -stalker complex perfect in every way and now finding flaws was helping me with problems not working yet so I blame him I need something to direct my anger at he was always there (always there for me) I hate myself he is around so much he has become a part of me ergo, I hate him I want myself to die he is the only thing keeping me alive he makes me happy even when I am sad or when I do stupid stuff he brings logic into my life keeps me grounded and not floating in illusion he is the only thing keeping me alive if i kill him then i can finally die he loves me I love him yet we are not in love and we will never be partners Are any of these reasons why I attempted to strangle him? or maybe it is simply that I want to see other guys -mostly just to try different thinngs but i do not want anyone else as lonng as i got him so i need to take away my option of having him It will be odd, making it through today. i can still feel the effects of last night my adrenaline is pumping right now i am siting in class but my heart is still beating hard nobody knows what i have done, they do not need to find out alright, I talked to a friend of mine about it, I found out it was just a bit of anger, all I have to do, is if I feel angry, I need to avoid the person or thing that is making me angry if he makes me upset again, I will just simply go home 3nodding I do avi art, PM if interested My Artwork Examples/ RP Thread http://www.gaiaonline.com/forum/chatterbox/rp-find-something-kill-it/t.68532621/?_gaia_t_=3934 Fay Da Way · Mon Feb 23, 2009 @ 02:21pm · 0 Comments


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I do avi art, PM if interested

My Artwork Examples/ RP Thread
http://www.gaiaonline.com/forum/chatterbox/rp-find-something-kill-it/t.68532621/?_gaia_t_=3934

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