So basically things have gone to s**t in Iraq. Chris has almost died way too many times for my liking. Everytime he can email me, it's always "Hey baby don't worry, but we were 5 feet from hitting 2000 pounds of explosives." or something like that. And I don't even know what to say to that. I've decided to ignore it in the emails...If that's wrong, tell me another way to go about this. I miss him so much. But I am strong and I can and will make it through these 9 more months so I can see him for a month, just to have him leave for another year. -sigh- This is what happens when you date someone in the Army. It'd be so much easier if he didn't tell me all that's going bad, though.
Cody had his hearing. 32 hours of community service, $1100 in court fines, and he's on probation. So I'll be able to see him in the Summer. I still have to tell my mother. s**t. And I think it'll only be me going to go see him. s**t. -sigh- This is crappy. I mean, I'd die to see Cody after all these years of him not living near me anymore. But then there's the money issue. I don't have a job anymore. And that means no money except babysitting. The kids I babysit are all moving away within the next two months. That's 16 kids. I charge $6 an hour per kid. I babysit for abour 5 hours everytime I have a job. It's a lot of money about to all go away D: I don't know what I'm going to do. My plans have changed dramatically from when I first wanted to go a couple months ago. Modes of transportation changed, and the prices of fuels have gone up. That also includes food prices. Then there's Chris. Dude how am I going to explain this one to Chris? He's SSSSOOOOOOO protective of me. He and Xain don't get along of course.
Speaking of which, Xain. I don't even know what to think about that kid. I'm supposed to be his best friend and on Monday he said to me, "Angie, whenever I look at you I get depressed. Hanging out with you makes me depressed. So I'm going to just stop hanging out with you, ok? Bye." And here's the thing: I don't even show my depression at school. Most of the time I really am smiling genuinely. I laugh, and smile, and I'm having a good time. For example, I was walking with this girl that I've known since she was 5. I was 7. And now she's a Frosh and I was walking around with her [cause she's NICE] and he and I were probably 150 feet away from each other. And I looked up and our eyes met, and he instantly glared at me then turned his back to me. And I'm like "What the ******** man". And I mean, I was laughing with Heather [the Frosh] and it wasn't like I was depressed. That girl is so funny and nice and just...it's hard to explain how people that come from San Miguel are. That elementary school: you make friends for LIFE. I just don't know what Xain's problem is. I mean, I didn't do anything. And Halloween is Andy's birthday. He and I are both going to his party. I personally don't care if he's there, but he's going to feel awkward. ********, he can do that. If he's gonna treat me like s**t then forget it. And there is no way I'm missing Andy's birthday. If Xain is so uncomfortable, then he shouldn't go. Because I've known Andy since I was 2 years old. Xain met him 4 years ago. -sigh- I just miss my best friends. Like I can't hang with Cody cause he's all the way across the country. And Xain's just being a ******** a*****e.
Peace
Minitaur · Sat Oct 18, 2008 @ 06:38pm · 0 Comments |