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So I was having a conversation with a Junior in VA and we were eating some of my friend's celery. I ate it plain, she ate it with PB. She looked at me and said "I can't eat celery plain, it's too spicy." My immediate thought was 'What the....?" Haha ok anyway...
Halloween came and went. Went to a party. It was fun. Andy's birthday as well so it was a mix :] Hmm after that night I've been hooking up with a lot of people. I actually feel like a little slut, which is different than my usual just plain flirty style. For all you young Gaian friends I have out there, hooking up in my book = sex. Ok then. I think I've had 12 people since Halloween? Yeah, that sounds about right. So I was talking to a guy that I had hooked up with over the summer [coworker] and while he was flirting with me, he was also saying something rather important. That, in general, being with one or two people is a good thing. And I agree, so from now on, I'm doing a little experiment. My sex drive only goes up when I have sex. The more I do it, the more it rises. So if I can just stick with one or two people then that should be better, right? Be more faithful, except not dating cause relationships suck so I guess 1 or 2 FWB relationships? Maybe. I'll try it...which leads me on to the next section of this.
Boys and girls, ladies and gents: Dima, Artem's [Jesse's bf] best friend, is from Russia. He's pretty hot, got a job, got a car, and he can kiss amazingly. We both like to party but like to get into engineering and do that smart kid stuff as well. We both agree on sexual stuff, so maybe that's chill? He's a nice guy, although we just met recently and he doesn't text back...maybe it can work out as one of the guys?
Markus....well...I like him. He makes me drool. Damn smart kid. But, lives in SoCal, and I have never met him. We're into the same s**t sexually, and we're semi-good friends. Except...I'm in trouble, so I can't talk to him that often and again, the whole thing about not meeting him kinda sucks a lot. I wish I could, though. Lives right near Sarah and Brian. I am afraid to get too attached to him. because he's got all the qualities I love in guys... Someone help me with this guy? Make it so I don't like him -.-
Jesse lives two blocks away. We had a crush on each other. She was too shy and I didn't want to come on too strong, so nothing was made between us. We're still excellent friends but I really do love her as more than a friend and it's awkward cause she has a bf and it's just like...she reacts to stuff way different than most people. Like, puts random emotion into certain things and none into things that normally have emotion and feelings. I will be her friend no matter what, it's just odd.
And then we have my two people: Amanda and Cody. Yayyyy for the confused and mixed signals I get from them always. WHAT THE ********. -.- Ok, fine. Do this to me again. Whatever I guess I just have to deal with my addictions to those two.
OK THEN. So Jakob Machovial just ODd. And died. I'm sad. The end. Sorry if I'm not speaking, but seriously, I don't feel like ******** talking. I don't give you any emotion because I don't feel like breaking down because the friend I've known for the second longest period of time just died. He wasn't my closest, and he has made bad choices...hence his way of going, but he was still an awesome guy. Got me to seriously refrain from using heroin or any other drug after Brian helped me stop. Jakob got me to say no even when it was hard. So to all you people who think it's you...well it could be, but there's a damn good chance I just don't talk. I don't text anyone except Legolas occasionally now, and I won't talk unless in ASL.
So the moving thing...well my mom has said no and s**t and it ******** sucks. I will find out for sure if I am moving or not by the fifth of December. She's just being a b***h and won't let me go anywhere and barely lets me see Jesse. I'm a little irritated. I got arrested and it only made me pissed off even more. ******** THE ******** POLICE [sorry Legolas, but seriously, it was ******** up what they did...I have nothing against your father]. I want to leave so badly. Come kill me yes? Thanks. I hate the fact that my mother is the person who gave birth to me. I hate her. I don't know why or how I aquired this much burning hatred passion for her, but I do. So whatever. ********. Ok well, I'm gonna just scream as loud as I can, as long as I can. And then work on homework that is made for Juniors at a college level.
Later
 Minitaur · Tue Nov 24, 2009 @ 05:45pm · 0 Comments |
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