I'm still feeling quite lonely today. Can't get my mind off worries. I worry despite myself.

There was quite a terrible storm today, but a beautiful, beautiful rainbow came out of it. It was possibly the most gorgeous thing I've ever seen in the sky, except maybe a full harvest moon.

I'm still confused about what I should believe, but my intuition tells me that I'm being spoon-fed the non-hurtful answers and I still can't trust it, especially when I believe someone else told me the whole truth. But there is still room for misinterpretation, always.

James is putting together some plans for tomorrow at the arcade with Emmerson, Wes, and possibly Azzy, Colin, and Cody. Have to call Azzy and Colin, since they seem to be unreachable on MSN at this time, although I know why Azzy isn't online.

James says it's to help cheer me up. I thought that was really nice of him, and I'm looking forwards to it.

I still can't help but think about things though. It still all seems too unfair. I can only imagine what's going on right about now... sigh...

How is this efficient emotional detachment? God I suck. -.-

Please let things be okay.