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Hello to whoever is reading this entry...i appreciate you being here right now...i just want someone to hear me...and i thank you for listening...

It's been almost two months since i messed up...(if your lost...read:A Lifes Story...youll understand...) and ive thought long and hard since...heck...i think ive thought more in the last six weeks than i have in six months of my life...however... this time...i actually had a reason to think...for her...for my "family"...for me...

I've thought about so many things...from my "true" feelings to her feelings...not just about what she thinks of me...but what she said to me...to this very moment...i just can't get her out of my mind...i sound obsessed i know...but this is what i really feel to be completely honest...(sorry to those who thought ive been completely honest before but i was holing back on my true feelings) i even wish nothing between us ever happened sometimes while i'm in mid thought...but then i try to throw that thought into a box then lock it and throw away the key...however...that box is reaching it's maximum capacity and i just need to let out some of it...

Anyway...this is about all i can say while summing up what ive locked away...this should keep me goin for atleast another...oh...i say...four weeks?...*sigh*...oh well...