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Name: Deskri Meian
Nickname: Des. Panda. Emu/Emo Panda.
Sex: Male
Age: 21
Stage: Adult
Item: Liquid Eyeliner
Height: 5'0"
Eyes: Gold, usually angry.
Hair: Purple, changes with his emotions
Skin: White as white can get....
Style: Fitted clothing, long pants, short sleeved shirts... Chinese style. Turtlenecks, long sleeved shirts. Black, purple, and red. Occasionally dresses a little more punkish. Plaid is love. Here's a polyvore.

Commonly known facts: He's gay bi. He's possessive, don't touch his precious Rasiel or Sonnet. He's a brownie addict, like, for serious. He's a purple whore, give him something purple and you'll automatically make it to his okay list. (But not friend list, that's really hard to do.) And he can't swim to save his life.

Hidden facts: He's terrified of heights. (Don't ask me how he survives when Sonnet flies him places, I don't know either.) He's got a terrible case of arachnophobia. Even the tiniest spider will make him freak out. God forbid said spider ever gets away, he won't sleep until it's dead. Literally.





Overall Personality

Putting Deskri in a nutshell is impossible. But I'm going to try. Essentially, Deskri is a twisted shell of what he could have been, if Kagyaku had not existed. He switches from being a genuinely caring, loving individual to being spiteful and angry for no reason at all. Usually the latter gets taken out on himself, because Deskri does not enjoy hurting other people at all. He'd much rather receive the pain than give it. To close friends, Deskri shows his "true self," or who he would have been without Kagyaku's influence. He tends to be very concerned with their feelings, their thoughts and what's going on in their life and how he influences it. Deskri will never behave that way with someone new. Ever. Everyone else gets the "shield" he created to protect himself from further torment during Kagyaku's possession. Outwardly, he's short tempered, he complains all the time, and is incredibly immature for his age. That's not the case at all, he just doesn't want to let anyone and everyone under his skin. Granted, he is immature for his age but it's less apparent when he's talking to a friend rather than someone he's just met.



The Good

Loyalty/ Once you've made it into the friend zone, Deskri will stick by your side through thick and thin. That is, until he thinks he's done something unforgivable, and then he runs for the hills. Away from you. But he'll come back if you're in danger and he somehow manages to hear about it.

Protective/ Deskri'll protect the people he cares about to his very end. Literally. He's pretty damn serious about that sort of thing.

Ambitious/ In a sort of backhanded way Deskri will... slowly work at getting whatever it is he wants. Whether it be brownies or a cuddle. By backhanded I mean he'll beat around the bush when speaking, or leave hints... If he's in a particularly bold mood he'll take what he wants.

Forgiving/ This is for close friends only! Deskri will dole out forgiveness to anyone that's managed to get through his shield as if it were candy so this could also be a negative, but it means that if a friend happens to step on his toes he's likely to forget about it after awhile. However, if someone hasn't gotten passed his shield, he'll hold a grudge forever. Or at least never forget that whatever set him off happened.

Loving/ At heart Deskri's just a pile of loving mush, and when he gets attached to someone he seriously gets attached. He's an all or nothing, especially with lovers. He'll give all of himself, yet expect nothing in return. For friends, he gives everything but his heart and... whatever else his lover wants.



The Bad

Poor Self-esteem/ Deskri often thinks of himself as the lowest of the low, which means he gets depressed extremely easily. This also means that he takes everything personally, so he ends up turning helpful criticism as an attack on his existence.

Addictive Personality/ Deskri will get addicted to things quite easily. For awhile it was cutting, then it was pills, back to cutting.. Brownies... Physical contact. It could be anything, really.

Extreme Jealousy/ On one hand Deskri'll be your bestest friend and follow you wherever you go, but on the other... He'll get jealous if someone tries to talk to you when he's talking to you, or someone wants to spend time with you when he's spending time with you...

Weak Willed/ One could say this is not a natural flaw for Deskri, but it's a flaw nonetheless. Because of prior treatment, Deskri is very weak willed and will give into anyone with a stronger will than his own. This means his loyalty can also be gained through malicious acts. He'd much rather obey someone than suffer, or worse yet, let a friend suffer.

Short Temper/ Deskri has a very short fuse and he's not above blowing up in someone's face. Anyone's face. Even his closest friends. This of course means that he emos about it forever and ever afterward, depending on how close the person he blew up on was...

Immature/ Deskri, although he knows better, is the sort of person that'll get into a shouting match with a toddler over who gets the purple chair rather than the yellow one. Thankfully this... lightens up a little bit when he's associating with close friends.

Possessive/ This sort of ties in with his jealousy problem, but Deskri is extremely possessive of his things, his friends, and anything else he has claim to. Messing with anything he deems to be his will instantly piss him off and land you on his "hate list" of people. This goes for trying to steal friends, touching his things, or just poking fun at him by gaining the attention of someone special to him.


Pastimes

Drawing/ Because he has to draw out some of his illusions, Deskri draws to pass time. He's a fairly decent artist, for his own little things.

Baking/ Brownies. That's all I can really say. He can make pancakes without killing anyone, and he can make canned soup... And Ramen, but that's it. Don't give him a cook book and expect to get a good meal out of it.

Music/ Purely as a listener, but he wants to learn an instrument. He's particularly fond of violins, (can you guess why?) pianos and recorders.

Reading/ if left to his own devices, Deskri will resort to one of two things. He'll draw, or he'll read. When he's got his contacts or glasses he's actually a very fast reader... Without them it's hopeless and so he'll resort to the third option, which is sleeping.




Astrological Signs


Scorpio: Let the Games Begin
[Info taken from Born on a Rotten Day by Hazel Dixon-Cooper]

Element: Water. Scorpio Water is a bottomless, roiling paradox. Fall in without protective armor and you'll come out a skeleton.
Quality: Fixed. Scorpio's never forget, forgive or let go.
Symbol: Scorpion. Just as it's crusty little namesake, the human version will destroy itself trying to get revenge.
Ruler: Pluto and Mars. Suspicious hothead. Compulsive-obsessive two-timer.
Favorite Pastime: Plotting their next move.
Favorite Book: The Klingon Guide to Mercy.
Role Model: The Masked Avenger
Dream Job: Judge, jury and lord high executioner.
Key Phrase: "I'll get you for that."
Body Part: Sex organs. Terminal case of the seven-year itch. Scratches frequently.


The Year of the Fire Dog
[Info taken from The Handbook of Chinese Horoscopes by Theodora Lau]

The martial strains have summoned me
to hear your sorrows,
still your pain.
I am the protector of Justice.
Equality--my sole friend.
My vision is never blurred by cowardice,
my soul never chained.
Life without honor
is life in vain.

I AM THE DOG



Fixed Element: Metal
Quality:Yang (Positive/Masculine)
Ruling Hours: 7pm-9pm
Direction: West-northwest
Season: Autumn
Corresponding Western Sign: Libra

The Fire Dog

This is a highly dramatic and attractive Dog that will be thrown into the limelight by his alluring yet friendly personality. he will be defiant and rebellious when forced to do something against his will, but he will be very popular with the opposite sex. Although he may be a life-of-the-party type, he is careful to practice what he preaches and will not be spoiled by success and fortune. Fire makes him very fierce when attacked, and he will only make threats he can carry out. This Dog's bite is just as strong as his bark.
The buoyant and self-assured Fire Dog has great magnetic charm and can convince others to follow his lead. His independent spirit and courage prevents him from being afraid of getting involved with others. He will constantly thrill to new experiences and adventures. But he needs a strong shining example to pattern himself after. He will relate better to people older than himself, those from whom he can learn a great deal, or can depend on to bring stability into his life.
Fire make shim or her more creative and pure in expression. He will be charged with super willpower and a natural honesty that people will find hard to resist. His outgoing character combined with the Dog's basic faith and idealism will help him to succeed in ambitious endeavors and overcome great barriers.


The Scorpio Dog
[Water + Positive Metal]

This combination is powerful, dedicated and energetic; a person who will display the Dog's righteous spirit and Pluto's deep insight into human nature. The Scorpio Dog likes to honor his promises, but Scorpio here could be detrimental to the liberal Dog's nature. He or she will approach problems with the kind of single mindedness that is not amenable to compromise. Pugnacious when aroused and unsparing with words, this person can be fierce and unyielding even in the face of defeat. Because he believes in absolute commitment, the Scorpio Dog will serve God or the Devil with equal fervor. But he will never have two masters. In the end, he will be true only to himself. His passion and loyalty never waver as he heads resolutely toward his goal.