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 Posted: Tue Jan 20, 2009 9:34 am
Kisala Grew
Journal Entry:
I've been getting bigger! Momma says I grew ten inches over night! I think she might be right 'cause man do I feel tall! I'm definitely bigger than Ajiiel anyhow, even after her huge growth spurt. And..well, I'm more -curvy- too just a little.
Momma says I'm becoming a young lady now and that she's worried about it because she's never had to deal with this sort of thing. I told her not to worry so much, though, because I learn everything I need to know in school so she doesn't have to teach me much!
We're going to talk about becoming an adult soon, though, because of the curves and everything. She already told me not to have sex and stuff, but she doesn't have to worry about that! I don't have a boyfriend, and sex sounds pretty icky anyhow. I mean, why would I -want- to...well, anyways, it doesn't sound like fun, it sounds dirty and painful and just gross.
I've started making bottle rockets lately. It's about as close as I can come to the real thing just yet, though I'm looking into robots and stuff too, because if I learn about them I might have a better chance at getting into NASA. And if I get good grades, so I'm studying a lot.
I still spend a lot of time outside too, though. I try to study under the trees and stuff so I get lots of fresh air. I don't like being cooped up inside all the time. It's good enough for momma because she meditates and all, but I just can't get the hang of that stuff. Even the sand pictures and everything are just...eh. boring. I'm not so good with art.
I am pretty good at music, though. It's a lot like math in some ways, and I'm good at that bit, but not so good with the creative bit. Still, I'm not tone deaf and I can manage pretty well. I'm playing flute mostly because it's pretty and in the key of C and so is one of the easiest to work with. Especially 'cause I can get music from elsewhere to play since there's a lot of stuff out there for piano which is in the same key.
Anyhow, Ajiiel is bothering me less and less too because she's busy causing trouble. I help her out a little sometimes to get her off of my back because I'm good at science and she likes to make small explosions. I can usually show her how to do it without hurting anyone, so momma's okay with it.
Okay, off to school!
~Kisa
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Posted: Tue Jan 20, 2009 9:39 am
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So, it's the new year today. And mom and I were talking about the new year and what it means. There's a lot more to it in her culture-- festivals and superstitions and stuff. She says it's very like Chinese New Year is for the Chinese in that respect, but very different in others. Like, more focus on the Dragon Lord. More meditation. Stuff like that.
But here, most of the New Year tradition stuff is for grownups-- things like kissing people and getting drunk and staying up until midnight. I'm not a grownup and I don't kiss people or get drunk, but I did stay up until midnight this year. Ajiiel stayed up with me, though mom went to bed earlier. I think Ajii mostly just wanted to watch the shiny ball drop. We have a lot more in common than I thought we did, but she's still pretty mean most of the time. Still, sometimes I feel like we almost...connect somehow? I dunno.
But I guess I'm sort've getting off subject.
This year, I made a few New Years Resolutions and I thought I'd share them!
1) Do well in school. Really well. If I do well enough, I can eventually go to college and then graduate school and get a doctorate and stuff and maybe even work for NASA.
2) Win at the Science Fair
Um. That's all I've got so far. Mom says they're supposed to be about bettering yourself, and I sort've think that's at least what number one is, right? So, that should be close enough. But sometimes I wonder what else I could do to improve myself. I mean, what exactly does that require? Meditating like mom does all the time? Or building that perfect origami crane? Or is it like getting married and having kids and stuff? I can't do any of -that- right now for sure. And mom says there's not really any point in working towards that stuff until I'm older. Though, she also says that in her culture I'd be getting ready to be married off to someone. Arranged marriage doesn't sound like fun to me, that's for sure! Marriage at all doesn't sound all that good. I mean, yeah, I like hanging out with boys, but I don't even like the idea of kissing them yet, let along marrying them and making babies and stuff!
There's time for all that junk later. For now, I'm just going to work on being better at what I'm good at. That ought to be enough, right?
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Posted: Mon Jan 26, 2009 7:11 pm
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Posted: Mon Feb 09, 2009 10:23 am
Kisala had not been feeling so hot lately. She'd stayed home from school twice this week with a fever and a strange, soft glow. Neither she nor Shiori were really sure what was going on, and why this happened to her. It wasn't the first time, either-- just, sometimes she'd get to feeling morose.
Really, it wasn't just moroseness or the fever and glowing either. There was some part of her that felt like something was...missing? Like she didn't quite belong on Gaia, like there was more to her life than she knew. But...that couldn't be true, really. She'd been hatched out of a cabbage, which was strange, but, then she'd been a baby just like every other kid she'd met and so how could there be anything else?
Still, the feeling gnawed at her as she lie snuggled under the covers on the couch, flipping through the channels a bit while the Discovery Channel was on a commercial. She knew she'd never settle on another channel, unless the History channel happened to be showing something of particular interest, but she still didn't want to watch the commercials.
Perhaps she ought to take to meditation like her adoptive mother. It seemed to give Shiori a remarkable clarity of mind, and maybe that would help sort this feeling out?
But she was feeling too sick for that today. Perhaps another day, when the glow sickness wasn't quite so...strong.
"Can I get anything for you, Kisa?" her adoptive mother asked, setting a glass of water down next to her. Whether she liked it or not, Shiori made sure that Kisala was properly hydrated during her bouts of illness. And she did her best to keep Ajiiel away from her too, as her younger sister was more inclined to make fun of her or in other ways make her life a living hell while she was ill than she was to help.
Kisala shook her head,
"No mom," she said softly, "I'm okay. You can go meditate if you want."
She knew that was what her mother was after-- but Shiori'd never leave Kisala alone for it if the girl needed her at all.
"All right. If you need me, you know where to find me."
She'd have to get up and walk over there, of course, which might be a trick, but Kisala knew that there would be no way her mother would hear her if she shouted for her while she was meditating.
"I should be okay. Have fun."
Shiori left, and Kisala flipped the channel back to Discovery. Now, if only she could go on that crazy diagnosis show. Maybe -they- could figure out what was wrong with her!
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Posted: Tue Feb 10, 2009 7:39 am
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Posted: Tue Feb 10, 2009 4:13 pm
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Posted: Tue Feb 10, 2009 6:45 pm
Journal Entry:
I've met so many new people recently! It's been pretty cool, really. First I met Ophelia. She's in class with me, but I didn't really know her that well, so it was cool to have a chance to study with her and stuff. She's -really- smart about English and everything, and I'm not so good with it, so she helped me out a -lot-, too. I mean, not that I'm really bad at everything in it-- I get spelling and grammar and stuff pretty well, but the whole reading literature and finding deeper meaning in it and then having to write about it and stuff...that really gets me. I mean, who cares what the rain symbolizes? If the book is fun to read, why should I bother figuring out all the little bitty things the author put in for his own sake, right?
Anyhow, then I met Ishizuke. She was all pale and stuff and I dunno I've never seen her outside before, so maybe she doesn't go outside a lot? Momma says sometimes that's why people are really pale because it's the sun that makes your skin darker sometimes and everything. I guess that's why my skin is so dark. Anyhow, we played with my bottle rockets and that was cool. She seemed to really like it when I made them all glowy so you could see them streaking across the sky. I don't blame her-- I really like it too! It looks really neat. I'm going to try something bigger later, though. Not just bottle rockets. A -real- rocket of some kind. I can start with remote control, like those remote control helicopters and stuff. I read a lot of stuff in books about how to do it, and now I just have to -start- it.
So then after that a few nights later I met Josh! He's pretty cool too. Younger than me, but he's nice and he played in the rain with me. I got pretty wet, but I think he tried not to get too too wet because he was afraid of getting sick. I've been sick enough times now, though, that I kinda don't care. Especially cause things like my glow sickness don't seem to be related to getting wet or anything, so if I'm going to get sick if I -don't- go outside in the rain, why shouldn't I go out in the rain and get sick that way?
Anyhow, that's all I've met recently, but I'm sure I'll meet more people soon!
~Kisa
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Posted: Thu Feb 12, 2009 6:15 pm
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Posted: Thu Feb 12, 2009 6:16 pm
Snip snip snip
Kisala's scissors flashed brilliantly as she cut out pieces of construction paper and glue. Her mother had offered for her to use a computer and print out some pictures and such, and she'd done for a few of them, but for the most part she was hand-crafting just about everything. She just wasn't hand -drawing- things because that could end badly what with all the soft curves involved in hearts and flowers and things. She was much better at drawing things that could involve a ruler.
"Those are beautiful, Kisa," Shiori reassured her, looking over her shoulder, "I love the lace on that one."
The woman pointed, and Kisala grinned. She'd gotten various colours of lace at the store when they'd gone on a supply run. Plus the construction paper, glue, some stickers, and some other odds and ends like ribbons and buttons and such. She was really very proud of all the different Valentine's she'd made, especially since each one was different. This way, everybody who got one would have a little piece of totally Kisa work and love. Then they'd all know how special they were-- even the people she didn't know!
She finished snipping a heart shape out of the construction paper (she'd used a template she'd printed out from the computer for it to get it right, otherwise it would've been a lot more squarish and pointy from ruler-ing, as she'd found out from a few misguided attempts). It was looking pretty good now, though.
A few stickers later and they were beautiful. She knew her friends would appreciate them, even if she was getting a bit too old for things like that. She just wasn't quite ready yet to let herself grow up, was enjoying being young and childlike too much. Even now, though, she could see that soon she'd have to be just a little bit more like her peers, have to stop acting like a little girl. Or even a big girl. She was getting close to being a young lady or woman or whatever.
Still, that wasn't her worry just now. She'd already worked through her concerns about having feelings about boys (or rather, not having feelings about them or anybody else) and decided that the best way to deal with it was just to give Valentines to everybody she knew and a lot of people she didn't know. Just as she'd done last year when she was still little.
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Posted: Thu Feb 12, 2009 6:17 pm
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You know, it's weird 'cause just last month I wrote about how I wasn't into boys like that at all, but...with all the girls around school going on about their boyfriends and what not, it gets me thinking. Do I -want- a boyfriend? Do I want to think about boys like that? or girls. Mom says it's okay to like girls like that too, but I think I'd rather like boys that way. I don't know. I don't really feel that way about anyone. Mostly all I want is to go to space and I don't really think about things like falling in love and getting married and having babies, even if I am old enough.
I asked mom about that sort of thing and she said that if I don't feel interested in it, that I shouldn't worry about it. And then she told me about what happened to her when she was only a little bit older than me before she came to Gaia. How she was best friends with this guy and they were supposed to get married because her parents were nice and were willing to take her input on her marriage. And how he went on a mission to this dark and evil place where all the bad things were and disappeared. Forever. He was just..gone. She was really sad. She didn't love him, really, she said, not the way that Gaia people talk about love or the stories do. But he was her best friend, and she would rather have married him than someone she didn't even know.
She told me about how lucky it is that we're both in Gaia now and can make our own decisions about getting married, can wait and look for that special person or not get married at all.
I asked her if she was going to marry Tlanextli because he's always coming over and stuff. Her face turned all red like she was embarrassed! That never happens! But, I don't know if it's because she likes him, or because she's embarrassed that I thought she did and wouldn't want him to find out I thought that. Like it might make him angry or something? I don't know.
I like Tlanextli, though. He's funny and has really cool wings and stuff. A little weird, though. Ajiiel gets along with him better than I do. They both like to do violent stuff a lot and be warriors or whatever. I don't mind fighting a bit like martial arts, but I'm not much for being a warrior.
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Posted: Wed Mar 11, 2009 3:47 pm
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Posted: Mon Mar 16, 2009 3:16 pm
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Ajiiel and I have been...getting along better recently. It's really weird. I guess maybe she's not as bad as she was. At least she's not biting me or pulling my hair or anything anymore. She's gotten a lot better, anyhow, either way.
I guess it's probably in part because we're all we've got. It's not like either of us have a whole lot of friends, so we end up spending a lot of time together. And, as long as I don't bug her about going to school or studying or anything, she doesn't put cherry bombs in my bed or anything.
I think she's going to be allright. Well, maybe not. She'll always be a troublemaker, but she's still my sister, right? And we still gotta stick together whether she likes it or not. It's hard sometimes, because I want to wring her neck when she's all mouthy and stuff, but then she'll do something surprisingly nice and we'll be friends again or something.
Like the other day when I wasn't feeling too well and she was really nice to me. She brought me books to read and watched TV with me for a while and we ate together when she got home from school and stuff. But then the next day she was back to her old self and left her skateboard in my doorway so I'd trip over it.
((TBC))
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Posted: Mon Apr 13, 2009 2:00 pm
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Posted: Mon Apr 13, 2009 2:01 pm
Journal Entry:
o.O Sex ed?
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