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I wasn't expecting, nor was I ready to come across an agent of the Negaverse. Bell thought to herself as she sat in front of her vanity, brushing out her long fawn-colored hair. It had been a disturbing night. One that Bell wasn't sure she'd make it out of in one piece. It was needless to say she was shaken. Terribly shaken.

She had been on her way back to the academy when Obsidian appeared. Thankfully in her purse had been a can of mace. She used it to make a quick getaway and transform. In hind sight, she should have ran. But...no telling how many lives she ended up saving whilst having Obsidian chase after her. That thought Bell kept running through her mind, as if to try and spread some light on the gloomy experience.

Bell sat the brush down, and looked at her trembling hand before picking up and putting the mass up in a giant butterfly clip.

She had ad an epiphany about her sailor senshi self. Sailor Bellatrix, senshi of fortitude. What exactly did that mean? Fortitude... In a moment of pure enlightenment she had spoke a little diddy about it....but now it was all a blur. And her attack.... with determination ans pure strength of will she had formed two golden chakrams of light. It was as if she had been in some sort of trance though. Pure instinct had led her that far, but when it came time to throw the spinning rings of light, she had faltered. As did her attack. The two were linked, she decided.
Oh, god, she had never asked for this.

Bell, satisfied that her hair would not get wet, made for the bathroom. She felt...so dirty. That warehouse had been so grimy and nasty...certainly nothing a crystal academy girl should ever be caught dead in! Her father would have a fit! But that warehouse had been her savior. had she not opened that door and tripped that alarm....she'd still be running...or dead.
Bell closed the bathroom door and locked it securely behind her. She was safe now. Safe and alone...with a nice bath to possibly help calm her rattled nerves.
As she turned the nob on the water, the tub began to fill with warm water. Bell added some bath beads and bubbles. A pleasant aroma filled the air - gardenia. The mirror was already fogging over from the steam. She was still scared. There would, no doubt, be nightmares tonight, if she could even sleep at all.

Stripping her clothes away, Bell then eased into the tub. The warm water felt good on her tight muscles. Now was time for more reflection...

Just why was she chosen to help protect the city, possibly even the world from the negaforce? Why her? As if she didn't have enough to do, but now this... She didn't even know what she was doing! Bell's thoughts continued, ranting about her new found duties. She felt a lump rise in her throat and fought back tears. No one was around though, and finally she let them spill fourth - sopping loudly and hopping her room mate had not come back yet, and over heard. How was she going to do this? What if something happened to her? What would her father think? What if she had to drop everything? What if her grades started slipping? What if she failed this year? What if she failed the world?

It didn't seem near this hard for Ellie....no where near. But Ellie and she were two entirely different people. It was Bell's assumption that Ellie really didn't have much of anything to bother worrying about to begin with. She was probably having fun! Well damn it, let her! She could save the world! Bell wanted none of it!

Bell immediately felt bad about thinking such a thing. She'd been given a duty.....she must adhere to it. But just what was she fighting for? To just save the world? What was the reason for this fight? Bell began to ponder the Negaverse. She didn't know much about them, other than that they were the enemies of the senshi. Why? What were they doing that was so bad?
Good and evil are subjective.
At leqast, that was Bell's opinion. However, if all negaverse agents were like Obsidian, she was pretty sure she wouldn't be getting any answers about that either, anytime soon.

Bell eventually decided an hour soaking in the tub was enough. She pulled the plug and rose, grabbing the nearby towel and wrapping it around her. Rising so quickly from the warm water made her feel momentarily dizzy - her vision turning spotty and black. She supported herself with a hand on the porcelain pedestal sink, then looked into the fogged over mirror. with her free hand she whipped away to fog, and looked at her face. So haggard. She needed sleep. Pulling open the medicine cabinet door that was the mirror, she reached in and pulled out a bottle of sleeping pills. Taking two, she then toweled off and got into her night gown. By the time she made it to the bed, exhaustion and the pills were overpowering her. She crawled into bed and under the warm comfy mass of sheets.

Sleep, sleep, sleep, Bellatrix princess.

Bell walked into the dorm she shared at Crystal Academy. Tiredly she flopped down at her vanity, and pulled out her diary. She sat there for a minute with the book open to today's page. What to write?

Today I met another senshi. Sailor Walkure. We promised to meet the following night and share information. I'm really beginning to think that teaming up would be in our favor.

Bell sighed.

Since when did I start taking this sailor stuff so seriously? I guess it is my duty, but why me? Oh well. I guess it won't be so hard if I have some friends around to help me. I just...really don't want to give up theatre. I know my grades are slipping, but I have to have something in my life that I enjoy! Maybe this is why people have friends? I just recently realized that I don't have them. I have acquaintances but no real friends. No one who's shoulder I can cry on, or whom I can share my worries or frustrations with. It's really really sad. Maybe it would be a good idea if, after this play, I put things on the back burner....
I do hope that my encounter with Walkure will start a friendship. Currently it’d just be a business relationship but hey, you have to start out somewhere, right? Hmn,..and there’s that Howl guy. He was really nice the first time a met him. Oh! And Franz to. I really liked him. But, then again, It’s not like I get to be around many boys. Not here at Crystal Academy, anyway.

Bell really was beginning to consider it. What social life did she really have, thanks to her hobby? Her chosen profession? Being an actress meant spotlight, but it also meant paparizzi and limelight, and rumors, and all sorts of things Bell just wasn’t sure she could handle. She didn’t have a good foundation for it. Her roots were planted in sand, so to speak. If a strong wind comes, she’s going to be uprooted like a tumble weed.

“Oh, Bell, you need to stop worrying so much. you’re going to get acne and wrinkles before you know it….” She said to herself in the mirror as she closed her diary and tucked it back in the drawer she had gotten it from.

Exchanging the journal for a brush, Bell began undoing her braid, which left the ends of her hair wavy after a long day. Brushing her hair was so calming, it took away the day’s stress. Even better, Bell though, would be having someone else brush my hair…. She could almost fall asleep when ever she was getting her hair done.

Placing the brush back in the drawer as well, Bell found her sleeping clothes and took them to the bathroom with her. After a quick shower, it was probably ten o’clock before Bell was in bed, ready to sleep…

“OH NO! My HOMEWORK!”

And so began a long night of homework for the busy Bell.

After the battle she and Regulus had with the youma, Bell headed STRAIGHT for the shower. It felt like she was crawling with nasty, when really there wasn't much of the charred youma remains on her. But not only did it feel gross, it SMELLED gross!
Bell really hoped her room mate hadn't seen. Bell hadn't seen her when she walked in. Hmn, must have been good to have a life....

Bell took a long hot shower and then got into her pajamas. She then sat down at her vanity and once again pulled out her journal.

Oh, where to begin? I was just leaving the theatre and had henshined up when I went to the roof of the building, only to be BLINDED by another senshi henshining too! His name was Sailor Regulus. We had a short bickering session before spotting a youma. We fought together to defeat the thing, though I got covered in nasty youma remains as a result.
Oh, but fighting together was great! SO much better than when I had to face Obsidian alone! I was so scarred then....with another person like myself, I felt a little more confident. I'm really excited now for my meeting with Walkure tomorrow night. I invited Regulus along as well. We made a good team. At least, I think we did.

No, I’m not crushing on the guy! I’m stating the facts here! After all, I’m sure he has other women to worry about. That and I really don’t have time for a boyfriend right now. Not to mention it would totally ruin the group thing.

So, in my last entry I was thinking about putting theatre on the backburner. I’m really starting to consider it now. I’ve finally felt what it’s like to do my duty right, and with others like me. It felt like it was the way things were supposed to be. I haven’t felt this good in a long, long time. So, after this production, I’m going to be a full time Senshi and student!

That reminds me, I have homework to do. Great. Not that’s supposed to be SARCASTIC. Well, till next time, friend.

Bell placed her journal back into the drawer, and grabbed her book bag. Plopping it, and herself, on the bed, she pulled out her etiquette book. Seriously, who uses proper etiquette anymore? Other than that Howl guy. He was really nice, but then again, now that Bell thought about it, he was kinda creepy too.

“I wonder when I’ll see him again...” Bell wondered to herself as she situated herself for homework tiemz.

It was late into the night before Bell had all her homework done. If her Roomate had come in, she hadn’t heard, but she was really too sleepy now to care. Tossing her books back in her back, and sliding her bag to the floor, Bell crawled under the covers and turned off her bedside lamp. Now, time for a good night’s well deserved sleep! Hopefully tomorrow would be a better way!